Secret

Chapter 47

Chapter 47: drunk 

It was award show season, aka December, aka by far the busiest year of the month for BTS. Everyone was working on different things for the award show performances every single day. Especially the shows for the MMA's and the MAMA's were extremely hard to organise. But BTS didn't care, all the members loved this time of the year. The award performances were always the best one and BTS knew how much A.R.M.Y loved them. Sadly enough this all came with a cost, named exhaustion. Because it was so busy they barely got any free days, and when they did everyone would still work on the performance one way or another. This also meant that Kookie and Yoonie hadn't been around for quite some time. Yoongi didn't even realise that that was probably the reason why he was feeling down, by lack of an another word. He wasn't feeling down like his depression would cause sometimes, but he was feeling... down... Non of the other members had noticed yet because they were all so busy, nor did anyone find it weird that Yoongi was in his studio on his free day. 

Yoongi was sitting in his studio, working on different mixes from Idol and Fake Love to make them perfect for the MAMA's. He wasn't feeling very well but working on the mixes made him feel a bit better so he just kept on working. When he tried some new things he put on the Idol mix and pushed his chair back, turning around in it. Yoongi was very happy with how the Idol mix was sounding now and decided to send it to Namjoon and the other producers to see what they thought. When the track got send he turned around in his chair again and looked around his studio. His eyes fell onto one shelf full with wine, beers and other alcoholic drinks people had given him for his birthday, winning awards and other stuff. He never really drank anything from the collection because he was never in his studio when he felt like drinking something, meaning the collection was actually quite big. Today was an exception though. As soon as his eyes fell on the shelf with drinks he decided he felt like drinking something, and so he did. He carefully picked out one of the wines that sounded the most appealing and opened it. He didn't actually have wineglasses in his studio so he just used one of the soda glasses that were laying around. After he got his drink he just went on working on the Fake Love mix. He knew he couldn't work as well when he drank, but he could still do something and so he did. 

When he finished his first glass he was feeling very good, for the first time in a few days he wasn't feeling down but actually feeling relaxed. To cherish this feeling he decided to just drink another glass... another bottle... a third bottle. Unlike Taehyung, who would be wasted after half a wine glass, Yoongi wasn't a light weight at all. Actually, he was quite a heavy weight and could tollerate alcohol the best from all members but even Yoongi was wasted after 3 bottles of wine. Yoongi didn't even know that he was drunk. He had stopped working on music after his first bottle, and slipped into little space after his third. Yoongi didn't know that being drunk was a trigger for little space, but apperently it was and even though his little side didn't like the bitter taste of wine, he kept drinking anyway. 

"Can someone go and get Yoongi from his studio, he's gonna stay to long again while we have a long dance practice tomorrow!" Jin asked the living room. Everyone but Yoongi was home right now and they were watching a movie together. Kookie had slipped when he got home so they were watching 'Caws'. "It's better for him to go home anyway, he probably needs to slip as well. He needs to slip more often than Kookie!" Jimin said while pointing at his boyfriend. "Yeah, you're right. I'll go and get him, anyone wanna join?" Namjoon said. "I'll, I forgot my bluetooth speaker anyway." Taehyung answered and he also got up from the couch and put on this shoes. "We'll be back in a bit!" Namjoon yelled before giving Taehyung the car keys. Namjoon didn't have a driving licsense for the sake of world peace. 

Taehyung and Namjoon had expected to find Yoongi working, maybe even sleeping, but definitely didn't expect to see Yoonie playing hide and seek with a stack of CD's because he was so drunk. Namjoon and Taehyung were both frozen at the sight of the completely wasted little, but Yoonie didn't care. "Ahppah" the little slurred when he saw his appa and cralwed over to him. Walking was absolutely out of the question for the drunk little. Namjoon didn't say anything back. He was mad at Yoongi, very mad, but he knew he couldn't punish Yoonie for it. Namjoon was convinced that Yoonie would never drink alcohol in little space, it was way to bitter for the little. "What happened" Taehyung mubbled in disbelieve. "I've never seen hyung like this before." "Me neither and I wish it had stayed that way." Namjoon answered with clenched teeth. Taehyung realised that Namjoon was very mad at Yoongi, but that he was trying not to do anything stupid right now. "How much do you think he drank?" Taehyung asked, eyeing the little who was now clinging into Namjoon's legs. Namjoon looked around the room and spotted the empty bottles. "Look, 3 empty and a 4th almost empty bottle of wine." Namjoon pointed out to Taehyung and Taehyung gasped. "That's definitely way too much." "Yes, let's get this idiot home, I'll deal with him tomorrow." Somewhere Taehyung felt pity for what was awaiting his hyung tomorrow, but all that pity vanished when Yoonie almost threw up over his pants. "yes, let's get him home." 

The other members where just as much in disbelieve when they saw Yoonie as Namjoon and Taehyung had been. Kookie was almost panicking because he thought there was something wrong with Yoonie and it took Jimin a lot of sweet words and promises that Yoonie was okay to calm Kookie down again. When Yoonie and Kookie where both in bed (Yoonie went out as a light, Jimin had decided it was also time for Kookie to sleep) the other sat around living room and where thinking of what to do with Yoongi. "I think you should just talk to Yoongi tomorrow Namjoon-ah. Ask him what happened and stuff. Yoongi isn't one to grab alcohol when he's feeling bad, he grabs..." Hoseok didn't finish his sentence, everyone already knew what he was going to say anyway.  "Yes, I think that's the best thing to do Namjoon-ah." Jin agreed. "Why me?!" Namjoon said confused. "Because you are the closest to him and he listens to you the best!" Taehyung said like it was logic, which it was. "Yes, plus you are already his appa in little space so it's easier for him to listen to you when he's big too!" Jimin added. "Okay, I'll talk to him tomorrow." 

Yoongi woke up feeling absolutely horrible. He was thristy, he felt like he was going to be sick and his head was killing him. Memories of last night where slowly coming back to him, and the more he remembered, the more ashamed he was. He had let himself go comepletely, something he hadn't done in a very long time. Then he slipped in little space and his appa and Taetae had to pick him up and help him with everything. Yoongi felt so ashamed. He didn't want to leave the bed and face his fellow members, but he knew he had no choice. He slowly sat up, feeling nauseous but luckily he didn't have to throw up. He looked up and saw a big glass of water and two painkillers laying on the bedside table and he felt even more ashamed. He slowly took the pills and drank all the water before deciding he had to go face the others, it was now or never. 

When he walked into the kitchen everyone stared at him with different expresions. Most where worry and disbelieve, but the expersion his boyfriend gave him made him want to go back in time so that it all never happened, dissapointment. He slowly sat down and grabbed some breakfast. The tension was very heavy but nobody said something, they knew Namjoon was going to talk with Yoongi. Jin silently gave Yoongi a cup of coffee and Yoongi mumbled a thank you before everything went silent again. When breakfast was over Namjoon stood up. "Yoongi-hyung, please come with me." Yoongi felt so ashamed but of course he immediatly got up and walked after Namjoon. When Namjoon entered his room he pointed at the bed. "Sit down, we have to talk." Yoongi sat down like a kid that was going to get scolded by his father, and that was exactly how he felt as well. "Please explain what happened yesterday..." Namjoon said. Yoongi could here the dissapointment everywhere and he almost started to cry there and than. "I-I don't know. I wasn't feeling well I guess? And than I finished the Idol mix and saw my drinks and decided to have one but one became many?? I really don't know Namjoon-ah, I'm so embarrased!" Namjoon already realised that he wouldn't have to be very strict because Yoongi was already so ashamed. "It's okay hyung, please just promis me you'll never do something like this again. You could have hurt yourself so badly! You were drunk in little space!!" "I-I'm sorry Joonie, I promis, I really do! Please don't hate me!" "I'll never hate you Yoongs, I love you." "I love you too." Yoongi mumbled back before he slipt into little space, everything being too much. "Yoonie sorry Appa!" Yoonie sadi while hugging Namjoon. Namjoon smiled at his little prince and gave him a hug back. "I forgive you prince." 

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A/n: FINALLY AN UPDATE! I'm sooooo sorry for the late late late update, I am having huge motivation problems with literally everything I do (depression sucks) but I'll try my hardest to keep making chapters!! love ya all <3

Also, thank you                                                                  for the idea .w.