Secret

Chapter 11

Chapter 11: little Yoonie

"Aaaaaawwww" everyone cooed at Yoonie who was still standing behind Namjoon. "Hey Yoonie!" Jin said, being the next one to talk to Yoonie. "How are you doing?" "scawed" Yoonie said, slowly slipping into a smaller headspace. "Aaaw, why are you scared little one?" Taehyung asked. "no w-wike Yoonie." "What do you mean Yoonie?" Jimin asked, "do you not like yourself?" Yoonie nodded while hiding behind Namjoon some more. Namjoon decided it was time for him to explain a little bit about Yoonie. He noticed that Yoonie was slowly slipping into a smaller headspace, even standing on his feet less stable. "Yoonie is very shy and he, sadly enough, has taken over some of the thoughts Yoongi-hyung has. Also, Yoonie is very young. I'm not sure what age he was when we are talking but I think he regressed to age 2, maybe even 1 right now." "Yoonie, how old are you?" Hoseok tried but Yoonie only shook his head. "I tried Hoseok but he doesn't seem to know numbers." "Does Kookie have little bwothew now?" "I think you do little prince!" Jimin said, "Yoonie is younger than you right and he's probably gonna be younger then you a lot!" Kookie looked very happy, hearing that he would have a younger brother he could play with. "Come Yoonie! Let's play!" Kookie said, looking forward to play with the other little. Yoonie on the other hand was still refusing to let go of Namjoon hand. "Kookie, it's very nice of you that you want to play with Yoonie but I think Yoonie is still very shy." Jin said gently to Kookie. "Yoonie no need to be shy! Dada, Jinnie, Joonie, Taetae and Seokie are nice!" "See Yoonie? I told you we would like you!" Namjoon said, trying to convice the little one of letting go of his hand, but Yoonie still refused. Instead he made grabbie hands to Namjoon, indicating that he wanted to be carried. Namjoon saw and put Yoonie on his hip. Yoonie immediatly started to whisper something in Namjoons ear. "Pway with aww" "Do you want to play with Kookie Yoonie?" but Yoonie shook his head and went back to whispering in Namjoons ear. "Aww! Wanna pway with aww!" "Do you want to play with everyone?" Namjoon asked this time and now Yoonie nodded. "Aaaaaww" everyone cooed again and Kookie was already getting his toys. Everyone sat in a circle and Yoonie sat in Namjoons lap and they started to play. 

After an hour of playing everyone had to pack their stuff again to go back home. Kookie had officially given his Eeyore plushie to Yoonie and Yoonie had given Kookie a hug in repay. Yoongi had gone big again to pack his stuff. He knew he would have to talk to the others about his little side when they got back home and he wasn't looking forward to that, but he knew there was no way back. Jungkook had also gone big again, and he was looking a lot better then before. Jungkook really liked it that he finally had another little to play with. When everyone was back in the van some last bts run recordings started before they had the rest of the day off. 

When they arrived at home Yoongi felt his anxity building up, they would start asking questions any moment and he didn't like it. Yoongi put his bag in his room and went to sit in the living room, waiting for the others. Slowly everyone came into the living room as well. Everyone knew that they had to have a meeting with all of them regarding little Yoonie. When everyone was sitting in the living room Namjoon started the conversation. "Yoongi-hyung, I think you should tell them something about your little self to start with." "Mhm..." Yoongi said, not knowing how to start. "Eeh, I've been a little for 7 years-" Yoongi started but got immediatly cut off by everyone. Both Hoseok and Jungkook were lost for words gaping at their hyung. Jin immediatly started to scole Yoongi for keeping secrets that would hurt himself and Taehyung was shouting "7 years?!!?" above all. After 30 seconds Namjoon decided to intervene. "Can you all shut up and let hyung explain please?" He shouted, even above Taehyung. "Thanks Namjoon" Yoongi muttered. "So, I've been a little for 7 years but I've always been too scared to tell you guys." "But you know that we accept littles!" Jungkook said, still surprised. "I know, Jungkook-ah, I know, it's just, at first I didn't know that you would accept it, and most people don't. Later when you slipped I didn't want to burden you all with a second little. And I think everyone noticed but I'm nothing like Kookie." "But then why did you pretend to hate me when you are a little yourself?" Jungkook asked. He was genuinely curious about the reason behind it. "I'm sorry for that Jungkook." Yoongi said, "But you would make me slip. Everytime you went into little space I would have to hide so I wouldn't slip as well. And my little side was-or is, not sure- jealous. You have everything a little could dream of while I only had one plushie, one paci, one color book, some cryons and some cartoons on my laptop. That's it." "Oh..." Jungkook said, feeling a little guilty now. "I never hated you or Kookie, Jungkook, never." Jin was the next one to ask a question. "Yoongi-ah, how old are you in little space? Hoseok asked you but you didn't know. I'm not entirly sure but usually between 1-4 but I also go into baby space alot." "Ooh, So I really have a little brother in little space!" Jungkook shouted happily. 

After around an hour of talking everyone knew everything of little Yoonie. Yoongi and his now new caregivers also talked about rules and boundries for both little Yoonie and the caregivers. They also used that time to remind Jungkook to some of the rules seeing as he wasn't the best at following them. Talking about the rules and other little stuff was hard for both Jungkook and Yoongi because it made them want to slip. As soon as Namjoon said that he thought they talked about everything Jungkook slipped. Yoongi wanted to slip as well but he still didn't feel comfortable slipping around all of the members. He had build up a habit of not slipping around them, and a habit is not something you can break easily. But on the other hand, one of the rules Yoongi had agreed with was that he was not allowed to slip on his own anymore. The rule was made for Jungkook when he first slipped but everyone thought it would be a very good rule for Yoongi as well. Yoongi wasn't happy with it and he already knew he would break that rule, but he also knew that it was a rule that was very good for him. Yoongi didn't know what to do, he wanted to slip somewhere on his own but he didn't want to break the rules. Yoongi looked around and saw that Namjoon was looking at him suspicious. Yoongi looked at Namjoon and finally decided what he wanted to do. "Namjoon-ah, wanna go to my room with me?" Yoongi asked. "Of course" Namjoon answered, guessing what Yoongi was planning. 

Namjoon and Yoongi went to Yoongi's room and as soon as Namjoon closed the door Yoongi slipped. "Joonie, wook!" Yoonie said while dragging Namjoon towards the bed. Yoonie sat on his knees and searched for something under his bed. He took out a box with his color book and his paci. Namjoon saw how sad the box looked with only 3 things in it and made a mental note to buy Yoonie some new things. Yoonie grabbed the paci out of the box and put it in his mouth, next he went to his bed and grabbed the plushie that was lying on the pillow. "Wook!" Yoongi said, happy to finally share his things with someone, "this is Namnam!" "Hi Namnam, I'm Namjoon!" Namjoon said back to the plushie. Yoonie was looking at his new caregiver and his plushie, he was so happy that he finally had someone to look after him. 

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A/n: Whoop! They finally met little Yoonie! 
Who else made the impulse decicion to preorder love yourself: answer? Because I did! I'm so hyped for the album! Hopefully I'll get the Yoongi photocard this time ^^ (if you didn't guess yet, Yoongi is my bias c:) 
I also have a question for you guys! I'm kinda out of stories to read and wattpad keeps giving me the same recommended so I was hoping you guys could help me! I mostly like stories about Yoongi but I read close to everything! Ofcourse I really like little space stories but I also like gang au stories or highschool au stories! Preferable with Yoongi as some kind of bad guy c: I don't like any x reader books though x) Please link me some stories! 
Love you all!