Secret

Chapter 10

Chapter 10: S-sorry

Jin was the first one to realise that Kookie was crying and rushed over to him. "Ssh, it's okay Kookie, it's okay." "I-I w-w-w-want Eeeeeyoooorreeeee" Kookie said while crying. "Sssh, I know little prince, we'll get your Eeyore back, don't worry." "D-do you pwomise?" "Yes I do little prince." A minute or so late the others also realised that Kookie was still crying and they all went over to him to comfort him. While everyone was either talking to Kookie or hugging Kookie nobody talked about Yoongi. Nobody completely understand what had happened. It was Hoseok who decided to adres the elephant in the room. "So... Who's gonna talk to Yoongi-hyung?" Everyone stopped talking to Kookie and looked around. "No thank you" Jimin muttered. "I like to life a little bit longer." Taehyung muttered. "I asked the question so I shouldn't have to go." Hoseok said. Jin and Namjoon looked to each other. "I will go... Jin, you coming with me?" Namjoon said while sighing. "No, no thank you, you can go on your own, I need to comfort Kookie." "Okay... -sigh-" 

Namjoon walked to Yoongis room. Just after they had arrived they had divided the rooms and Yoongi ofcourse had had the luck to get a room all for himself. When Namjoon stood infront of the door he didn't know what to do. Maybe I should just start with knocking. Namjoon thought, so that's what he did. Yoongi didn't react so Namjoon knocked again. "Yoongi-hyung, it's me, Namjoon, I just wanna check if you're okay, can you open the door?" but again nobody reacted. "Hyung? Are you there? Are you okay?" Namjoon said, panicing a little. Yoongi was still depressed and a fight like this probably doesn't help, what if Yoongi was doing something to himself right now? Namjoon knocked again but still no answer. "Yoongi-hyung? Please react!" Namjoon almost yelled, panicing for real now. "EVERYONE PLEASE COME" Namjoon yelled to the others. Everyone could hear the panic in his voice so they all rushed over, Hoseok already holding his phone. "What's wrong Namjoon-ah?" Jin asked, sounding scared. "He's not reacting at all! He doesn't even tell me to go away or anything, he's not reacting!" "Is the door locked?" Jimin asked, also sounding scared. "Yes, do we have a seperate key somewhere?" Namjoon asked the others. "Not that I know of, should I kick in the door?" Jungkook asked. He had gone big again somewhere in the commotion. "Just do it!" Taehyung almost yelled. And that's why Jungkook did, he kicked in the door and all the members run into the room until they saw what was going on. Yoongi was sleeping, like a rock, clutching the Eeyore plushie to his chest. It was Jimin who spoke up first. "Can someone explain to me how Yoongi can go from yelling our ears of one moment to sleeping like a rock the next moment?" "I guess it's Yoongi's special talent besides making music..." Jin reacted. Namjoon was looking at Yoongi and he saw how sad but happy Yoongi looked while sleeping. "Just let him sleep for now, I will try talking to him tomorrow." Namjoon said while walking back to the hallway. "He must have had a very exhausting day." 

The next morning Namjoon went to Yoongis room again. "Yoongi-hyung, are you in there? We need to talk." "C-come in" Yoongi said. He knew he should be happy already that nobody came to talk yesterday (or that's what he thought, Yoongi didn't realise how fast he had fallen asleep). Namjoon walked in and saw Yoongi sitting on his bed, still clutching the Eeyore. Namjoon was 100% certain that Yoongi was a little too now. Yoongi was trying his hardest not to slip, even though he knew that the others probably already knew that he was a little. Namjoon went to Yoongi and sat next to him on the bed. "Yoongi?" Namjoon said, forgetting his honorifics on purpose, "is there something you need to tell me?" Yoongi looked down at his Eeyore plushie. As soon as Namjoon forgot his honorifics Yoongi had slipped. "S-sorry" "What are you sorry for Yoongi?" "Yoonie wittwe" Namjoon realised that Yoongi refered to himself as Yoonie in little space so he decided to go with that. "Why didn't Yoonie tell us that he was a little too?" "Nu wike" "Do you not like us knowing that you are a little Yoonie?" Yoonie nodded. "Why don't you want us to know? You know we accept you either way right?" Even before Namjoon finished the sentence Yoonie started to shake his head. "No no no!" "Nowbody wike Yoonie! Yoonie no wike Yoonie!" Namjoon started to realise that the problem was a lot bigger than just a secret little so he decided to talk about it with Yoongi in big space. For now he would just try and learn a little bit more about Yoonie. "I like Yoonie! How old is Yoonie right now?" Yoonie frowned and looked at his fingers. "Dunno" Yoonie answered in the end. Hmm, this is gonna be harder then I thought Namjoon thought. "How long has Yoonie been a little?" Namjoon tried this time. Again Yoonie frowned, "Dunno". Hmm, so I should probably ask those things to Yoongi too. "Yoonie? Can I talk to big Yoongi?" "Mhm" Yoongi answered, clearly back in big space. "Yoongi-hyung, how long have you been a little?" "You don't want to know, believe me." "No, I do want to know, so please tell me." "7 years" Yoongi whispered. Namjoons eyes went big with surprise. "7 years?!" "Mhm" "Then why did you never told us you were a little?!" "Namjoon" Yoongi sighed, "look at it from my perspective. At first I couldn't be sure you would like me, most people find littles disgusting, I even find myself disgusting. But then Jungkook slipped for the first time and everything changed. Now I knew you would accept me, but I don't accept myself. I'm nothing like Kookie, you should have seen that just now. Yoonie is shy, scared and young, very very young. Kookies age is around 5-6 right? My age is usual somewhere between 1-4 and I even slip into baby space alot. And besides that, I don't want to be more of a burden then I already am! I'm the worst member of BTS, don't try to deny it and then on top of that you'd have to look after another little! I can't be little!" Namjoon had been listening with surprise. "Yoongi, you aren't the worst member of BTS, you are one of the best, especialy when it comes to producing. And we don't mind you being different from Kookie! How have you been able to hide your little side for so long?" "It was easy at first, just locking myself in the studio. But then Kookie made an appearance... He made me slip way more often, that's why I pretended I hated him! He would make me slip. I wasn't lying to hyung when I said that I can't relax when Jungkook is in little space. I literally can't because I have to keep myself from slipping the whole time!" "You should've just told us hyung! We can be your caregivers as well!" "No you can't! You have Kookie!" Yoongi said with tears in his eyes. "Yoongi-hyung, we are with 5 caregivers for 1 little, 2 littles shouldn't make that much of a difference!" "But..." Yoongi was slipping again, he had wanted a caregiver for so long. "Yoonie bad. Yoonie hut Kookie!" Yoonie said while he started to cry. "We can appologize to Kookie, I'm sure he'll understand." "Kookie no mad?" "Kookie won't be mad at you Yoonie, don't worry!" It was clear that Yoonie was a lot different from Kookie and that he was in a lot smaller headspace but it didn't matter to Namjoon, he thought it was cute. "Yoonie, can I talk to big Yoongi for a little while longer? I have a few last things to ask." "What you wanna know?" Yoongi asked, big again, which surprised Namjoon a lot. "First, how do you switch so easy?" "I usually don't switch easy, it's just right because I'm so used to forcing myself big around you guys." "Mhm, makes sense. But the real question I wanted to ask, whats up with the Eeyore stuffie?" "I-eeh- remember how I said I had plans for yesterday?" "Yeah...?" "My plan was to buy this Eeyore plushie. It was gonna be my second plushie. I finally had the courage to buy it..." Yoongi whispered ashamed. "When I saw that Kookie had the plushie I wanted for so long I got jealous and snatched it..." "Oh Yoongi" Namjoon said and sighed, "well, we'll find a solution for that. For now I think you should tell the other members about Yoonie. Do you want to tell them as Yoonie or as Yoongi?" "Yoonie" Yoonie answered in a small voice. He was scared, very scared. 

Yoonie was holding Namjoon in one hand and the Eeyore in the other hand. Namjoon had messaged everyone just before he and Yoonie had left the room, telling them to go to the living room. The other members were very confused by what was going on even though most of them realised it had something to do with Yoongi. Namjoon walked into the living room holding hands with Yoonie. Everyone, I have to introduce you to someone, say hi to Yoonie. Everyone looked at little Yoonie which scared Yoonie a lot. Yoonie tried to run back to his room but he couldn't because Namjoon was holding his hand so Yoonie hid behind Namjoon. Jungkook was the first to say something. "Hi Yoonie! I'm Kookie!" Yoonie peaked from behind Namjoon. "H-hi" Yoonie said back. 

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A/n: Thank you all for 500 reads!!!! Ily <3 <3  
(Can you guys please tell me if you can see this a/n, I can't see it myself on my phone, like I didn't publish the whole chapter while on my pc it's showing everything, ty!)