heaven was wrong // fillie

the dark side

it's hot. why is it so hot.

and i'm not talking about the kind of hot you feel on a summer day.

i'm talking about actual scorching hotness.

where the hell could i be now?

i can feel sweat dripping down my back and across my brow. everything's hazy again. why does this keep happening? i just wanna know what's going on. it seems like i'm never in the same place for very long.

i still don't know if what that snarky boy said earlier was true. it just didn't seem real. i couldn't be dead. there was no way.

my vision returns to me quickly this time, i can clearly see my surroundings. something about this place was different then the other. and i'm talking much different.

bowls filled with ever burning flames sat atop black pillars. they seem to be leading somewhere. i stand up cautiously. everything around me is ether black or extremely dark red. just like the place i was before, i had never seen anything like it. expect this place was the total opposite.

i stepped forward, the floor made a sizzling noise whenever i put my foot down. what the hell is up with this place? i take the back of my hand and wipe away my sweat from my forehead. i flick it towards the floor. it evaporates immediately.

at this point, i know i'm going to end up passing out again due to the heat. i look back towards the pillars. there are about 12 of them, 6 on each side. a large door sits between them, it appears to be open. i begin to make my way over there.

i dart my eyes around, searching for any sign of life. nothing. the only sound that could be heard was the crackling of the blue flames.

once i get to the door, i see a small opening. i slide in and close it behind me. it is almost completely silent when i walk in. my guard is up for a moment as i look around. a loosen up after i'm sure it's safe and proceed down a never ending hall way. distant bickering can be heard from one of the many rooms that lined it.

i peer around one of the doors, the voices become louder. two small, fat, almost pig like men appear to be arguing.

"another damn half breed!" one of them yelled as they slapped down on a small clipboard. he sure did remind me of someone i met earlier in all of this. and that world, half breed. why did it keep showing up? i had to learn more. i pushed my ear against the door.

"it's not really our choice ok? she'll chose her side. it's only a matter of time" the other one smirked. my side? what side? seems like everyone i was meeting was totally insane.

"we sure could use some more of them right now. more and more of them are being forgotten and fading away. there's not really anyone left." forgotten? fading away? what is this place?

"i have a feeling this one will end up like the rest of them." a small red book appeared in his hand. he flipped through a couple of pages before stopping and read. "millie brown. drug addict. loner. daddy issues. yeah, she'll be dust in no time." what the hell! where did they get all this information on me? it was so personal, how could they have known?

in my frustration, i pushed to hardly on the door and it opened. i landed on the floor with a thud.

"ouch..." i mumbled as i laid there in embarrassment.

"eeep!" one of the men jumped onto the other as he screamed. "it's here. it's here!" it shouted while pointing at me. the other one rolled its eyes, throwing the other one to the ground.

"excuse me, can you tell me where i am? and why everyone keeps calling me an it?" i ask as i rub my head.

"you're in the land of the forgotten sweetheart." one said in a matter of fact tone as the one behind it nodded. they were almost identical. but, one had a suit on and the other, just a top hat and pants.

"l-land of forgotten? l-like the one in the fairy tales?" i must be dreaming.

"just like that." the one in the suit answered while pointing his finger up ward.

"oh and by the way, you have been called an it because you haven't been classified as an angel or a demon yet. the devil and god are in a disagreement. they aren't sure where to put you. when you were alive, deep down you had all the right intentions to do good. that makes god want to keep you. but, you have committed so many sins that the devil would like to keep you as well. instead of having a fued, they are letting you decide what you will be for the rest of time." the one in the hat explained while looking into my eyes.

"r-rest of time?" it can't end like this. if i'm stuck here for the rest of my, death i suppose, ill lose my mind.

"well, yes. until we find another body to put your soul into that is" the one in the hat said as he came out from behind the other.

"it's called reincarnation, dim wit." the one in the suit barked at the other. he looked down in shame.

"so i really am dead, huh." i stared off blankly. there was nothing i could do to get out of this now.

"it's taken you this long to figure out?" the one in the suit snapped as the small book he held vanished.

"she must be in shock. most are" the one in the hat stated. it's almost like he's had this same conversation with others many many times.

i still couldn't believe what they said. how could i be dead? i cant help but wonder how died. i wonder if i'll ever know. do i really want to know?

my memories seem so distant here. almost like they had happened hundreds of years ago. and if i really was dead, does anyone from my memories even miss me? do they even care that i'm gone? i don't think i really gave them much to miss. i was always alone, just like the little man said.

as i was caught up in my thoughts, the two men continued to ramble.

"how long before she goes back to the angels?" the one in the hat said as he sat back, filing his nails rapidly.

"hopefully soon, i don't wanna deal with her any longer." the other scoffed.

"how about we speed up the process?" they smirked at each other and then looked back in my direction. a bat appeared in each of there hands.

"lights out, princess." they said in unison as they swung.

the darkness slowly returned once again.