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19

     You sat in the waiting room of the emergency vet, elbows on your knees, head in your hands. They took Hagrid back as soon as you came in, leaving you standing there, a complete mess. You were trying so hard to hold the tears back. Thoughts of your brother ran through your head, how he came home one day with scraggly looking kitten. The biggest smile on his face, how much he loved that animal even when his drug addiction was so bad he made sure that cat had food and clean litter box.
     But he was gone, had been for sometime, and Hagrid was the only piece of him left in this world. A warm hand gently stroked your back, you sat up suddenly, your eyes met those sky blues you had come to know so well. Chris gave you a weak smile as he pulled you into him.
    Your reserve not to cry broke, tears fell as he held you close to him. Chris stroked your back as you clutched on to him, you trying to calm yourself back down. When you did you pulled back looking at him. 
    "Your sisters birthday?" You asked, he brought his hand, brushing the tears from your face.
     "I couldn't just let you be here alone." He replied softly. "What has the vet said?"
      "They.. they are stabilizing him." You said shakily. "I'm sorry, you didn't have to come."
      "Don't apologize, I wanted to be here for you." He pulled you in and gave you tight hug.
      "Miss y/l/n?" Your head snapped around, wide eyes landing on the vet.
      "Yes?" You asked, standing on unsteady feet.
       "We have him stabilized at the moment but his kidneys have shut down." She said softly, reaching over and grabbing your hand. "I'm sorry but.."
       "Can I see him?" A fresh tear rolled down your cheek, if anything you had to say goodbye. It was one the thing the drugs took from you when it came to your brother.
      "Of course, follow me." She smiled sadly, taking you to the back.
     One the table wrapped in a soft towel was the mangy cat you loved with your whole heart. IV's hooked up to him, his eyes closed, he looked so peaceful. You walked over, Chris staying just behind you, you knelt down at the table in front you. Looking at Hagrid.
     "Im Sorry Buddy." You said softly, stroking the cats face. "I don't want you to go but it looks like it's that time huh? At least you get to see your dad, can you tell my brother something for me? Can you tell him I miss him? Let him know I think about him all the time, and even though he did what he did, I'm not mad."
     Chris placed his hand on your shoulder, giving you a gentle squeeze.
     "I love you, Hagrid. Tell my brother I love him too, and if you see grandpa as well." You watched the animals chest rise and the fall, then he didn't breathe in again and you knew.
     You continued stroking his face, tears running down your face. Slowly you stood, watching as the nurse checked for a heartbeat, she gave you sad smile again. You turned, Chris pulled you tight against him, allowing you to cry into him. You heard the nurse leave, allowing you your moments.
   He stroke gentle circles in your back, his head resting on yours. It broke his heart to see you like that, not being able to do damn thing about it. He felt your body shake with each ragged breath you took.
     "Hey, baby girl, breathe." He whispered, placing a tender kiss on the top of your head. "You'll see him again. I'm sure you've heard of rainbow bridge."
    You pulled back, looking up at him again and shook your head.
     "Its where they wait for you. It's a special place your pets wait for when you pass to meet with you. And they'll be there like they were at the peek, beautiful and full of life and when it's your time they will reunite with you to cross over." Chris explained, smiling down at you. "He'll be waiting, I promise."
     "Okay." You said with a ragged breath. "Can we go?"
     "Yeah, come on." He replied, grabbing your hand. You stopped by the desk, sign a form, they were going to get you a paw print and give you his ashes in a couple of days.
    Chris walked you out, telling them they would be back for your car in the morning. He told you he didn't want you to drive being as upset as you were. He took you back to his house, he help you out of his Jeep and walked you up to the building.
Opening the door for you, he help you out of your jacket, tossing it on the chair next to you. You reached up and wrapped your arms around his neck, Chris pulled you closer as he snuck his arm around your waist.
"I'm sorry baby girl. I know hard it is to loose a pet you were close to. They are more like family then family sometimes." He kissed your forehead gently as you went to bury your head in his neck.
    "I just want to forget, even if it's just for a bit." You sighed, Chris didn't hesitate as he lifted you off the floor gently.
    He walked you down the hall to his room and gently set you down on the bed. His eyes were focused on yours as he pulled your shirt from your body, followed by your pants. He pulled his shirt over his head and unbuckled his pants letting them drop to the floor.
     Unlike the times before he took his time this time. His gentle touches and caresses were exactly what you needed, they way his fingers danced across your skin, setting it on fire. His kisses were intense as he stroked the sensitive spots of your body, your nerve endings humming tight. When he finally did enter you he almost had you coming undone.
     His pace was slow, and yet it was perfect. You could feel his entire length drag through you when he pulled his hips back, just for him to snap them back. He seemed to know exactly what you needed with out you ever saying a word. He locked eyes with you as he continued to buck himself into you.
    "God, you're beautiful." He whispered, leaning down, his lips crashing into yours.
    You could feel yourself building, your core started to tighten around him as Chris drove himself harder into you. He grasped your thigh, pulling it high on his hip and you dug your finger tips into the back of his arm. With a hard snap the dam burst, your orgasm hitting you causing you cry out lightly.
    "Baby girl." Chris groaned his pace faltering as he came right behind you.