Look Up At The Sky

Chapter 18

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I've thought about what Brown said a lot since I met him at the graveyard. It's only been a day since I did meet him but still, what he said, what he told me about Emily and how I should see it with my parents.

“Don't see it as your parents leaving you behind. See it as them making sure your future stop is safe when you get there.”.

I guess that's a better way of seeing it. Well it is a better way of seeing it and I like that a lot better. It made me feel better. Safer, for some reason. Is that weird? Hmm..

I'm cleaning out the last things from my dad. Putting his things in a box, seeing his things and getting reminded of how he used to smell, well when he didn't smell of alcohol, is weird. Emotional. It feels like it wasn't so long time since I did this with my moms things.. But then my dad was here to help.. I guess I was the one helping him then and not the other way around.

Sitting in this bedroom where my dad and mom used to sleep in, packing away his things made me feel more alone than I had for weeks. No mom. No dad. No Lilly. Lilly.. I'm still clueless of what I can do about her. The thing is I can't think of anything to do. His god damn contacts and people are everywhere and they're always on his side. I guess they wouldn't be too much of good people according to him if they weren't. Police, hospital, social services, lawyers.. Someone everywhere.. I hate it. I hate him.

“Hello?” I said into the phone to who ever had interrupted my thoughts by calling me.

“Hey, what's going on?” a male voice said but I couldn't figure out who it was.

“Erm.. Who is it..?” I asked back.

“Sam. What you don't have caller ID or you didn't recognise my voice anymore?” He asked with a voice mixed of amusement and irritation.

“What..? No I was just.. erm.. nothing.” I answered back a little taken aback.

“So what are you doing?” He asked again now clearly irritated.

“Just cleaning out my parents bedroom. How's Lilly?” I asked a little careful.

“Oh.. I.. That's.. I'm good, just good. Wanna take a break and do something?” He then had the nerve to ask me.

“How's Lilly?” I asked again ignoring him.

“Wanna go do something with me?” He asked again but not irritated anymore but.. calm.

“No I don't what to do anything with you now answer my question Sam.” I was know irritated with him. Which isn't really a new thing tho.

He didn't answer but the doorbell rang and I had a weird feeling I wouldn't like the person standing on the other side of the door when I opened it. But I went out of the bedroom and down the stars to open the door. And of course who wouldn't it be but Sam standing there.

“I brought you chinese food.” He said and invited himself in and went to the kitchen.

I closed the door and then followed him into the kitchen. When I got there he had taken out plates, cups, knifes and forks and was now seated on one of the chairs next to the table. He looked at me who was still standing in the door way looking back at him.

“Are you going to join me or what?” He asked me with a smile. A genuine smile..

Not saying anything I just walked to the other side of the table sitting down on a chair, still looking at him.

“It's not polite to stare you know.” He said and chuckled a little whilst putting some food on both of our plates.

“What wrong with you? Did something happen? Have you hit your head or something? Are you on drugs again Sam?!” I asked, the last part a little angry because.. I'm not sure really.

“What? No! Why would you ask me that? I'm offended.” Sam said clearly not offended at all.

“You.. You're.. You call me asking what I'm doing and then shows up at my house as if we're still together, which wasn't the best time in my life may I add, and you bring chinese food with you. And if that wasn't enough you're actually nice and you're chuckling and smiling in a none mean kind of way. All of this as if nothing has ever happened..” I blurred out without thinking or breathing.

“I'm just trying to be nice..” He sad and actually seemed a little hurt.

“.. Sam.. I just mean. You're not a very nice guy.” I said looking at him. “You used to be. You really used to be the sweetest guy ever and I was so happy and proud to call you my boyfriend. But some time down the line, you changed. And it wasn't for the better.” I added, first looking at him but then down at my hands resting on my thighs.

“I know. I'm sorry. I just.. I don't really have an excuse for anything I've done or what I'm doing. I'm sorry.” He said and he kind of seemed genuinely sorry but I still had a weird and worrying feeling in my gut.

We talked, ate and even laughed for a bit when he started to take our dishes to wash them. He even insisted in doing so, wouldn't let me get up from the chair.

We kept laughing and talking about old memories, before he went all sadistic and.. Crazy.. But all I wanted to bring up was Lilly, and I was about to get the perfect opportunity.

“Yeah and remember when we went to those rocks at the beach and you fell into the water and when you got back up you were covered in all of these green stuff on your head. You looked like the hulk, but female and from the sea.” Sam said and we started to laugh so much my stomach started to cramp at the memory.

Sam was talking about some other memory when his phone started to buzz from a text message he had gotten so I reached over to give it to him.

“Hey you got a text..” I started to say and was about to give it to him when I saw Lilly's name in the text on the screen.

“WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING IN THE EMERGENCY?!?!” I yelled out at Sam and his evil smirk was back.

I hate him.

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A/N

Ahhhh i told you a new chapter was coming on Sunday and it's like an hour late.. BUT let's see it this way.. It's up now and one hour isn't that bad is it? ^^' But like I said in the last chapter my cousin came and I only see her a coupl eof times a year so I wanted to spend some time with her. She's like my cousin (duh), sister and best friend all in one :')

Sam came back kind of and he's kinda nice.. Kinda.. In the beginning of the chapter anyway..

OFTC: What do you think has happened to Lilly and what is you thoughts about what's going to happen in the future of - Look Up At The Sky - ?

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