Look Up At The Sky

Chapter 21

His lips. His breath. Sam's lips, Sam's breath.. His tongue.. Our lips lost contact for a few seconds only for Sam to press his lips against mine again. His hand genteelly making it's way behind my neck, the other around my waist trying to pul me up from the chair. I wrapped my arms around his neck, one of my arms tugging, playing with his hair. Our lips and tongues went perfectly together. Perfect, as if nothing had ever happen. As if my dad was still alive, as if Lilly wasn't laying in a hospital bed, as if Pete..

The sound of something hitting the floor made us jump a little by surprise. The both of us look towards where the sound came from. My eyes got locked with the amazingly blue shade of his eyes for a few seconds and then all I saw was his back turning against me. Without thinking I stood up and started to run after him. I didn't catch up to him until a third of the parking lot was behind me and even then I yelled for him to stop.

“Hey!” I said gabbing his arm.

He turned around but he looked angry. Well maybe not angry as much as.. disappointed. Yes, he looked disappointed with.. me?

“What is it with you?” I asked, sounding a little concerned.

“What is it with me?” He tried to copy my voice, only changing the 'you' to 'me'.

“There's no need to be rude..” He was usually always so nice, defensive towards others when it came to me and Lilly, why that is is still an excellent question, but never towards us exactly.

“I thought better of you. I thought you knew better that this.” Was all he said, looking anywhere but at me.

“What are you..” I started but got cut off by Pete.

“You've always said what a huge ass Sam is. I remember you crying and screaming and refusing to do anything except waiting for the possibility of Lilly coming back. I took care of, I've been there for you through every bad thing that dickhead has done to you since we met.” I said making gestures towards the hospital, still not looking in my direction.

“Keep going..” I say with a blank voice.

“I thought you were smarter than this, going back to him. Again. I'm disappointed. I thought you were better than this. But seeing you basically sucking his face off in front of your sister laying in her hospital bed, I realise that you're just as dumb as any other girl in your age. You used to be the strongest girl I've ever had the pleasure in meeting and getting to know. You've been through so much shit, a lot of it caused by Sam, and you're still standing tall. That is saying something. And then you go and do this.. What are you doing.. It's dumb. So so dumb..” He stopped.

He didn't look at me. Not even once during that whole rant. Not once..

“Wow.. You sure know how to break it down to a girl.” I simply said and turned around to walk back into the hospital.

“Hey don't be mad at me!” I felt his hand gripping my arm and swinging me around before I had the chance to take more than a couple of steps.

“Don't be mad at you..? Don't be mad at you?! What the hell dude!” I said starting to raise my voice.

“You're the one who repeatedly kept telling me that I'm dumb, that I keep making bad decisions and that you're disappointed with me. You said that I'm strong and that the fact that I'm still here is saying something considering everything I've been through. Well considering all the crap life's put and keep putting me through don't you think I know how to take care of myself? Considering all the crap I've been through do you really think you calling me dumb is what I need in my life right now or any day? No it's not. And if me being a dumb thoughtless girl is all you think of me then go ahead and drive your car home and never talk to me ever again. I'm worth more than that and I don't need more crap in my life.” I said starring him right in his eyes.

“You say you don't need more crap in your life and yet you're getting back together with the biggest piece of crap there is. That shows you can't take care of yourself. You're only 16, what would you know about that.” He said with a calm and sightly cold voice, looking at me.

“Don't you dare talk about him like that Pete. Don't you dare. You have no clue about what he's done for me. You only have a few puzzle pieces but that's not enough to solve the whole puzzle. You have no right in calling him that. You're a grown man, or at least that's what your age is saying but you're acting more and more like a 16 year old than I am.” I said.

“You're already defending him. You're going back to bad habits and you're not even realising it.” Pete said calmly, almost mugging.

What is going on?! Sam is being the nice guy and Pete out of all people is being the massive.. UUUGGGGHHHHH CAN'T YOU JUST GIVE ME A BREAK FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE?!

“Well if you think I'm going back to bad habits then maybe you should talk to me about it instead of calling me names and jumping to conclusions. And not that you have anything to do with it, I'm not back together with Sam.” My voice was surprisingly strong saying that.

“I have talked to you about it, well I've tried. I think you are going back to him, you just don't know it yet. I think it'll be too late when you do. Who knows, maybe Lilly will be laying in a bed with four walls and a ceiling the next time.” He said looking at me.

“I want you to get out of here. Get out of here and never call me, never look at me, never think about me or Lilly again. Never make any kind of contact with any of us ever again.” I told him, tears threatening to surface.

“And Pete, I am disappointed in you.” With those words I turned around and walked back to the hospital and in to Lilly's room where Sam still sat holding her hand.

I didn't see Pete for a long time after that.

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A/N

I'M SO SO SO SO SORRY!! I know I haven't updated in, what is it now.. 68 years? And I'm so sorry about that! I've just been dealing with some personal things and now school have started and I've already (1,5-2 weeks in) started to get preformance anxiety for my classes and instruments.. I know I shouldn't use that as an excuse but that's all I've got.. Haven't had much inspiration to write either but yeah. As from now, I will genuenly try to upload at least 2 times/week because I don't want to leave you haning like I have. It's not a good feeling..

BUT THIS CHAPTER HOLAAAA what's going on?! Have Sam and Pete switched personalities or what is going on?!

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