I Do... Not Want My Boyfriend

Chapter 14

You and I go hard at each other like we're going to war.

You and I go rough, we keep throwing things and slamming the door.

You and I get so damn dysfunctional, we stopped keeping score.

You and I get sick, yeah, I know that we can't do this no more.

Yeah, but baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you.

Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.

Got you stuck on my body, on my body, like a tattoo.

And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid, crawling back to you.

Chapter 14

--Elspeth--

I hated waking up by myself but I knew Clay needed to go to work. The last thing I wanted to do was stop his ever-growing progress. He was doing good with getting back on track and I didn't want to be the reason as to why he suddenly took steps back.

I sat in one of the many hospital waiting room chairs, just wanting to get out of here as soon as possible. My parents had wanted me to accompany them as they said a couple of words to Grandma. So far she hasn't woken up and I felt a pang in my heart at the thought.

My eyes widened when I saw Holt, Caroline, and Kate walk into the waiting room. Caroline looked as if she hadn't slept in days. Her face was without makeup and her hair was an unruly mess. Holt seemed as if he was hurting for his own wife, his face warped with worry. I knew he hated seeing her this way.

"Elle!" Kate screeched and then headed over to me. I let out a small smile as I welcomed the hug of my niece. 

Although I wasn't really up for some play time with Kate right now. 

"Why are you here?" she asked her voice taking on that childish tone. I had to smile at her wonder-filled face.

"I'm going to see Grandma." I explained.

Kate frowned, her hazel eyes swimming with confusion, "But Mommy said Grandma leave."

I frowned along with her, my few seconds of happiness now gone. I looked over at Caroline. Tears were already brimming in her eyes but she didn't look at me as her and Holt walked through the set of hospital doors to get to Grandma's room. I guess I was going to be Kate's caretaker. It wasn't like I had the courage to walk in there either way.

The thought of seeing my grandmother laying on that bed, helpless just brought upon new pains I never thought I would feel in my young life.

"Do you wanna play?" Kate asked propping her hands on her hips.

I shook my head, "I'm sorry I'm just not feeling good Kate."

She brightened up, "Then let's play doctor. Come on Auntie Elle."

This little girl was going to be the death of me.

"Besides I'm tired of playing house. I wanna play doctor." She pouted. I tried to stop her as she went to take a stubborn seat on the dirty hospital floors. Oh God, Caroline was going to kill me. She absolutely hated surrounding Kate with germs. 

But I decided to play along with Kate. "Why don't you wanna play house?" I asked.

"Because of Jules!" She whined, defiantly crossing her arms.

I smiled. Her and Jules were like an old married couple. "What happened?" I asked, tucking a piece of black hair behind my ears as I sat indian style in the hospital chair.