He rests his hand on my thigh while driving, calming me down a bit.
I could've killed him and he said it was okay. I could've killed him. If I didn't hit that wall, we wouldn't be on our way to his house. He wouldn't be sitting here, comforting me.
I set my hand on his and look out the window. My LED turns yellow as I take in the outside scenery.
"I love you, Conner," Hank says, capturing my attention. My eyes soften as I smile.
"I love you too, Hank."
"Whatever happened back there, you're going to have to explain it to me. Was it some sort a malfunction?" He asks.
I start to panic and my LED turns red, "I-I don't know, Hank. One minute I was just standing there and then I got this message. I-I thought she was dead, er, gone. I suddenly didn't have control of my body, it was like I was being controlled by someone else. I didn't mean the things I said, I promise you I didn't mean it," tears started trailing down my cheeks and I could feel myself starting to hyperventilate. "And w-when you, w-when y-you," I couldn't speak, but I could feel pain throughout my body.
"Conner, calm down, calm down!" He says, grasping my face and stroking my cheek, trying to keep his eyes on the road.
"Stop the car," I say.
"What?"
"Stop the car!" I yell.
"Okay, Jesus," he says, pulling over.
I open the car door and run away, tripping on a log that I didn't see since it was night time.
I'm a deviant. I'm afraid to die yet I was going to kill Hank. What if he died? I'd be on the run but I know they would catch me. They would shut me down. They're going to shut me down!
"Conner!" Hank yells, a short distance away.
My red LED flickers fast.
Hank puts his hand on my shoulder, "Conner, you're shaking!"
"I could've killed you!" I scream. "I can't stop thinking about it! I'm so scared, I've never felt so scared. I-I'm a deviant, but I can't even control my own body. I'm broken, I'm already broken. They're going to shut me down, once they find out. I-I don't understand!" I cry, panic spreading throughout my body.
"No one's touching you, baby boy. You're not broken, you're Conner," Hank says, holding me in his arms, calming me down.
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FanfictionThirium, or as humans like to call it, Blue Blood. Cover Art: _hjuki on Twitter