listen to sad song by we the kings while reading this, cause i've been listening to it while i was writing it and i cried.
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hi niall,
19 days, just 19 more days till i will see you. I've been feeling a little bit better these days, I decided to make this letter only about you, i'm gonna write how I feel about you, in this letter. I love you.
You're more than just a boy in a boyband to me, you're not just niall horan to me, you're the world to me, you're my whole world, you're the reason i'm still holding onto life, you're the reason i'm trying to stay strong, you're the reason for my smile, you're the reason for my tears, i'm so in love with you, that it scares me, I never thought it was possible to love someone so much, but I do. I do love you so much. I feel complete when I see you, you put the pieces back together, you make me whole, you make me happy, you make me believe that life is actually beautiful, you make me want to take challenges, you make me feel loved, you make me feel beautiful and worth it, you make me happy, you make my life worth living.
I can't imagine a life without you, I don't know how I've managed to survive all those years before you came into my life, but that's not important, what's important, is that you're in my life, maybe not the way I want you to be, with me, but still, you're in it. I can't even begin to explain how much you've done for me, you pulled me back to life when I was drowning, you changed my suicidal thought into better thoughts, you make the voices in my head disappear, you make the urges to kill myself disappear, you bring light to my life, you bring meaning to my life, you are my life.
A life without you... I wouldn't call that a life, cause without you, I have no life, without you i'm lost, without you i'm not myself anymore, without you i'm broke again, but with you, i'm alive, with you i'm myself, with you i'm whole again.
You make me whole again,
i love you
i need you
i exist.
Love,
Ashley ✧･ﾟ*
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yay! an update ! hope you liked it, i cried so hard while writing this, cause this is exactly how i feel about niall.
oh and also, royalnialler on instagram has made me a trailer, it's 15 seconds long, but that's okay, i will make a longer one after the story is finished so I can add more parts to it, i'll post the trailer with the next chapter x
love you lots x
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letters || niall horan.
FanficShe writes him letters, almost every day, she tells him her biggest secrets, her biggest fearS. She trusts him, but he? He has no clue who she is and that she even exists. We're talking about a girl named Ashley Anderson and a boy named Niall Horan...
