"you love me right?
we both know you
do." - k.sm
in which kim seungmin
is mentally unstable
and will do anything
to break hyunjin's
heart and stability.
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time written ; 13:41 pm time finished ; 01:18 am
WARNING ; READ AT YOUR OWN RISK (I will be putting these throughout the chapters in case; I already put one in the intro)
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN — ♡ —
the words that came out of the unknown boy's mouth shocked woojin. he felt frozen, lost in words as he doesn't know what to say. trying to reach out for jeongin, he flinches and still is silent.
"what's your name.."
jeongin took a deep breath, quietly he replied. "yang jeongin.."
oh. woojin recognized the name. he remembered reading his files once he transferred into the academy. he knew his backstory, but nobody else has. or, so he thought.
"I see..you're the new student who came here a couple months ago.."
jeongin nodded, "y—yes.."
"look love.." he started out, "you don't need to be afraid of them. you don't need to..do it. it might not seem as if no one is there for you, but I am.."
"you're just saying that cause you feel pity for me."
woojin shook his head, grabbing his hand he smiled gently towards to the younger. "no. pity isn't it, but it's called I actually care. jeongin, I know what happened. so? please."
jeongin being stubborn, he pushed away woojin. "I'm sorry..I can't do this anymore..."
woojin frowning, he stood up. pointing at chan, jeongin gave a confused look. "w—what.." the younger scoffed.
"you did this to him." woojin told, "did you not feel any mercy?"
jeongin shook his head, "of course not. every human being is sick. nobody deserves happiness since I can't have it myself."
"jeongin, you push everyone away. you're negative thinking is consuming you. you're, not you."
"this is me." jeongin replied bluntly. "you don't know how much it hurts to be called those disgusting things. suicide sounds like my escape route out. cutting was my tylenol."
"jeongin I-"
"please. don't 'jeongin i' mr. council president. i just.."
"jeongin, may I ask you a question?"
"I mean, I guess you can.."
"why did you hurt this boy?" woojin firmly came off, "what were your motives. what part of your mindset say that it was okay?"
jeongin gave a light shrug. he didn't want to rat out seungmin so took the blame. "cause I wanted to."
"that's not a valid answer."
"in my world it is." jeongin snapped back. "I wanna go home.."
woojin shook his head, "you're not going home. nor going anywhere unless you answer my question."
"I answered it! now stop getting on my ass!"
"jeongin! physical abuse towards one isn't right, how would you feel if someone made you bleed. bruised you and ruined you!"
"people have already done that to me." jeongin said with no emotion. "if you know my story you should have known the verbal and physical abuse I received. you should know the whole story, the way they made my nose bleed. how they busted my lip, ruined me till I could not walk home. they wanted me to scream for help as if it was pleasurable to their ears. all just because—"
"you were gay." woojin finished off. "and that is perfectly fine. you are you. nobody else can change you—"
"but words can kill you." jeongin cut off, "they say sticks and stones may break my bones but words shall never hurt me. well they are wrong! sometimes their phrases won't go throughout the other ear once I hear it from the other. they'll stay in my head, clouding and rewinding all over! they want me dead! why doesn't the world understand me! blocking off their voices isn't easy, no blocking off the world isn't. because nobody can be happy without anybody ruining it. I'm sorry."
jeongin getting up, he ran off. woojin trying to chase after him, he stopped once he swerved into another hallway. remembering the injured boy, he went back. getting his phone out, he called a number.
"don't worry, I'll be here to take care of you—" woojin softly told.
"i—it's chan.."
"okay chan, well get you some help but I'm going to get a friend to find jeongin alright?"
chan nodded and rested his head on the lockers breathing heavily. when the line on woojin's phone finally went through, he sighed.
"hey changbin. can you please find yang jeongin quick. look everywhere, do not waste any time please."
