"you love me right?
we both know you
do." - k.sm
in which kim seungmin
is mentally unstable
and will do anything
to break hyunjin's
heart and stability.
"y—you can receive help hyunjin.." chan spoke slowly. " you don't have to be like this.."
changbin who tried to crawl closer, hyunjin placed the knife to his neck.
"step closer and I'll slit it." he threatened.
"don't do this hyunjin! please, seungmin wouldn't want this!"
hyunjin gritted his teeth, "shut up about minnie! he told me we'd be together forever and I know he meant it. so don't even start with your sympathetic shit!"
"hyunjin! don't you want to live!"
"no. nobody wants me. only he did."
"that isn't true! your parents, the school—"
"the school doesn't give a shit about me! the students just want me for my looks, my parents are out and about not even knowing I'm hurting! nobody cares, he was the only one who did!" hyunjin shed a few tears and screamed, "how many times do I have to fucking tell you!"
changbin stepped a bit closer, about an arms length away "we don't want you to die. so please, give me the knife and— FUCKING SHIT!"
hyunjin slashed his wrist without any warning. "I said don't come any closer, you're very disobedient."
"that fucking hurt you little shit!"
"do you really care? do you really want me alive? all they'll do is put me in a cell, maybe even a room with soft white walls. they'll just tell me everything is alright. when everything really isn't."
"everything will be okay and—"
"no it won't."
"can you let me finish, for fucks sake!"
"I don't need to hear your stupid words! they're the same every time! you might be in this state but tomorrow will be a better day. you might be depressed yet you'll get over it! you might this, you might that! words don't always work on everyone. they need to feel something, everyone tells me I'm loved but nobody shows it. nobody gives me the affection I wanted, the attention I craved. the love I deserved it's so fake, like I'm living in some simulation. I'm sorry, but I can't do this no more."
chan fell to his knees, covering his eyes as he didn't want to watch what would happen next.
"I'm sorry, but the pain is overwhelming to where it's all numb. I won't even feel a thing I promise I'll be happier."
hyunjin smiled, lifting his head up, he moved his hand swiftly.
