-Unhealthy Obsession-

.1. Second Thoughts

I went to bed that day, dreaming about Mia. She was saying how much she loved me and we hugged and kissed and we had kids. We lived in a big house while our kids, and a dog, ran around having fun. It was amazing, until I woke up.

I opened my eyes to the sun barely starting to come through my window, making my room still relatively dark. I laid in bed a moment, thinking about my dream. Oh how I wish i could make it a reality. But not yet. I have to be patient. I have for this long.

I still had hours before I'd go see Mia today. Thinking about her made me smile again, but then I frowned when I knew I wouldn't wake up next to her anytime soon. I groaned and pushed myself up from my bed.

Sometimes I hate being a stomach sleeper. It gives me this crick in my neck and I hate it.

I rolled my neck and shoulders trying to relieve the pain. I hopped out of bed and made my way to my shrine room. I knelt down, adoring the pictures I've taken over the years. I grabbed my journal and started writing in it.

-lob--lod-log entri 236

I groaned. I was still too tired for this. I scratched out my mistakes and flipped to my last log entry to refresh my memory.

log entry 237
9/5/2018
6 am something maybe

i dreamt of Mia... again. this time is was different. very vivid. clear.

I set the pen down. I didn't know what else to write. With a sigh, I closed it and kissed the front like always. I got up and went to my kitchen, fixing me a bowl of cereal. I need to buy more pancake mix. I love pancakes.

After I ate and showered, I was feeling more refreshed. I threw on a gray shirt and dark jeans. I cleaned up around the house like: sweeping and washing windows. Once I was done, I plopped on my couch and turned on netflix.

I hated how out of place my TV looked compared to this cheap house. It was a large flatscreen, very fancy, very expensive. I was trying to save money so I could get Mia whatever she wanted when she got here, but I had to blow a lot of it on things like: fancy locks and big TVs with netflix and hulu, comfortable beds, and of course mimicking a girls room which of course if going to be expensive, and bills.

Somehow, I barely manage with stupid jobs but luckily I've been saving up for seven years so.

I lean back and watched Supernatural. I was on the second season and it was already good.

Time passed by and I frantically looking at the time. I was watching this for three hours! What the hell? It was almost ten now. I sighed and rubbed my face. I'm just glad I hadn't missed my date with Mia.

I got up and stretched. I needed to do something else. Maybe I should check up on her. I grabbed my camera and my bag, throwing on a windbreaker jacket and putting on my shoes.

I stepped to the dark outside, locking my house and zipping up my jacket. It was getting colder. Fall really is coming. I got in my car and drove to Mia's campus. I parked far away and walked the rest there. I walked behind the tree and turned in my camera.

I put it up to my eye and pointed it at Mia's window. I zoomed in on it and saw she was still asleep. She was so precious. Luckily for me, she was on the first floor. I snapped a few pictures and then wasn't satisfied. I inched closer until I found myself at her window.

I took a few more pictures getting nice shots of her sleeping figure. I so badly wanted to climb inside and sit next to her. I licked my lips, taking a few more shots. Suddenly, a light flashed on her nightstand and I ducked. I slowly peeked back up to see her stirring.