July 2014
I think what we're all looking for
is a place to escape
to just be present in the moment
without thinking or feeling anything in particular
a place where you just are, right there
where the world pauses around you
where you can just be.
I've found a few places like that
not all literal places
some of them mental
like when the smoke has gone to your head
and everything is slow and prolonged
and maybe it still hurts to be alive
but you're just too stoned to give a shit.
the physical places I've found are all mundane
like the river's edge in late evening
when all you hear is the water on the rocks and boat engines
the world is so loud, I can't even hear myself half the time.
but I've found serenity in morning rowing practice at 5 am
when everyone but you is asleep
and the sun isn't even out yet
and you get to see the rare sight of a sunrise.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that
no one really takes a moment anymore
no one slows down and appreciates anything
no one thinks life is beautiful anymore
because we just don't see it.
life is the universe's most beautiful creation
but the pain battering my mind isn't.
