problems | j.hs

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"there's something i need to tell you." lana suddenly said.

"what?" hoseok turned the volume down.

"oh my god." she took a deep breath. "when i went to that party last week, i didn't remember anything. i don't remember anything."

"what do you mean?"

she ignored his question and continued. "i woke up naked in bed with namjoon beside me -" hoseok was still as a statue. he didn't do anything but stare deep into the ground. "but i didn't feel anything so i know i didn't have sex with him but when i went to go ask him -"

"you went to him?" hoseok said in a soft voice.

"when i went to go ask him, he was playing with me." lana said. "i'm so sorry hoseok. you were right and i never should've went. i'm so sorry."

"what's the point of apologising now? if you wanted to go to the party then go. if you wanted namjoon, have him. but don't break my heart in the process, i'm tired of always being left to fend for myself. knowing now that you've cheated on me, i'm hurt. but i don't want to show it because i don't like feeling weak. you made me weak, lalana. you did. after everything we've been through, i thought we were finally getting somewhere, strengthening our relationship. but turns out you thought differently. i'm sorry for loving you, i guess."

and with that hoseok left to go upstairs. he didn't cry then but behind the closed doors, the tears streamed down his face.