that's it.
its happened.
i've broken down
i'm hysterical
and i know this is necessary because of the shock
but
i hate that he's made me feel vulnerable and weak and emotional and broken
because my emotions shouldn't revolve around him
but they do !
and i fucking hate it
and i hate him for this
the funny thing is
i told him if he got a girlfriend
we would have to change
he tried to pull a prank and said he'd got a girlfriend
(it made me feel sick then as well, but i saw through it straight away anyway)
and i told him that we couldn't talk as much
that he'd have distanced himself by now
and he'd at least have mentioned her frequently enough for me to notice
all the signs were there.
everything i said
so why can't i accept it?
because it's her
the girl you confided in about him
the girl who tried to help get you two together
the girl who hid that she liked him
the girl who said she'd tell you if anything changed
the girl you helped him turn down
the girl who hid that they were now going out
and let you find out by kissing him
..fuck it
monday 20:49
imessage
me: call me when you can,, i'm just
gonna get this over with
read 20:55.
YOU ARE READING
him.
Poetryno name was mentioned but you thought of someone, didn't you? ...i definitely did. i think i always will.
