i said i snapped before but
i fought with my dad
and so i'm logging out of everything
telling no one to contact me
silent tears running down my face again
(sorry that sounds so attention seeking, i don't want you to comfort me, just leave me alone.)
this is getting all too familiar.
the constant feeling of being a disappointment
of being too fat
too ugly
too boring
too smart
too unfunny
too tall
too short
too loud
too quiet
too happy
too sad
too annoying
and watching everyone distance themselves
(don't comfort me. just let me say it, i'm fine)
i'm getting bad again
i don't want to get bad again
but it's the only familiar thing at the moment
being sad
i wouldn't even call it sadness anymore.
i'm starting to find comfort in the pain
which is
so
fucking
disgusting
and now i'm really crying
my throat is closing up
i can hear my pulse hammering in my ears
and all i want to do is run away from this room
incoming facetime call 22.48
...
answer call / deny call
answer call / deny call.
YOU ARE READING
him.
Poetryno name was mentioned but you thought of someone, didn't you? ...i definitely did. i think i always will.
