Possessed and Possessive (Completed)

Chapter 18: Try

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EL's POV

I felt I was shaking. OMG there is an earthquake! I got out of my bed hurriedly only to bump into a laughing Rhonda.

"Rhonda!" I exclaimed.

"I am sorry Beth I just love doing that" She said in between chuckles.

"Seriously? I could've died of an heart attack. And I am too young to die."

"Stop being melodramatic. Anyway there is a boy downstairs, Adam, who is here too see you."

I turned around to check the time. It was 7.15. Both of these bestfriends love to drop by my place early in the morning, I thought.

I asked Rhonda to make him comfortable while I shower and change. Once done, I walked downstairs dreading the talk with Adam. I wanted to avoid it but at the same time I was also curious to know what he wanted to talk to me about.

As i entered the living room, I greeted Adam:

"Hey, how are you doing?"

"Great as always" He smiled in reply.

"So you want to have breakfast?" I asked casually.

"Yes please. Thanks." Adam said.

"No problem, c'mon," I guided him to the kitchen where we helped ourselves to pancakes and coffee that Rhonda had made. We ate in silence.

"Umm so can I start talking to you Beth about it now? If you're okay with it?" Adam asked me after a while.

Even though I didn't feel like it but I agreed saying: "Yeah, go on"

"Beth have you met Ed's family?" Adam asked.

"I just met his sister, why?" I asked him back in reply.

Adam just shook his head and further asked me: "Okay did he talk to you about his parents? Did he tell you about them? Their relationship?"

"Yeah he did. They have a happy married life and they both love each other. Why are you asking me all that Adam?"

Instead of answering me, Adam asked another question: "Did he tell you something else about his family?"

"No, why?" Okay now I am curious. What is Adam hinting at? He broke my train of thoughts by saying:

"And this just proves what I said to you yesterday."

"What?"

"That you both don't know each other's back stories. You don't know about each other's past. You both fell in love with each other's presents without knowing the pasts, Beth and that has affected your future"

"Adam, I don't get what you're saying."

"Beth, what I am trying to say is that we all have a past that shapes our present behaviours. Look, I'll explain. Did Ed ever tell you that I was once in a serious relationship with this girl whom I really loved?"

I can't believe Adam was in love, ever. he was and is such a big player. He used girls more worthlessly than we use tissues. I still looked at him and shook my head denying knowing about it.

"Well, two years back I had fallen for this girl who was my neighbour. She was just the kind of girl I wanted in my life. We got together but she never trusted me. I kept on trying to show her I trust her and love her in a zillion ways but she just didn't believe me. Do you know why? Because her previous boyfriend had just done all that and then he had had her gang raped and had made the video available online. Her past affected her present behaviour. She could never trust me and we fell apart. And I think that is just what is happeneing to you and my jerk of a bestfriend. You both have a past that affected you both in trusting each other. Had you both got to know each other than you both could've helped each other to deal with it. And that just would've brought you more closer. But you both just did not do that, God knows why?!" Adam finished exasperatedly.

All that Adam tols me was too much for me. I asked him if he was ready to leave. He looked at me for a while but agreed. As we walked towards school in silence, I can't stop but think about what he said to me. And I think he is right we didn't talk to each other about our pasts. Maybe because we were scared that it'll make us lose each other. And the very fear that stopped us earlier had separated us later.

But know the question is that does Ed still love me? Will he change for me? I decided to ask Adam those questions.

"Ofcourse he will Beth. He loves you. I know that." He replied in affirmative.

"But what he did yesterday negates that Adam" I said,

"I know but that is because he doesn't know you. He doesn't know you hate jealousy shows. Had he known he would've never done that."

I looked at Adam with disbelief. He sighed and put his hands on my shoulders and said

"Look Beth he loves you. He just had a different way of showing his love. His possessiveness was his way of showing love. And I know it was wrong. I think he knows that too now."

"I don't think so. He never really noticed how it hurt me. He never really noticed me."

"Thats not true Beth. You know what? He was the one who had noticed that you lost weight in the last two month and he pointed it out to me. Something I had missed."

My head shot up in surprise. Ed noticed it? But not even Alice noticed it. I couldn't believe it. As we reached the school gates, Adam stopped me and said:

"You know the day he came back he texted me the first thing asking how you're holding up. He loves you Beth and by the looks of it, a lot. He just needs to change a few things about himself and so do you. You both need to change a bit."

Maybe he's right. Maybe we need to change. Adam pulled me out of my trance saying:

"I have a suggestion, Beth."

"What?" I asked warily. After all, he is Ed's best friend.

"I think you both should start again but this time by trying to be friends. And then lets see what fate has in store for both of you."

"I don' think so I am ready for it, Adam."

"I am not saying you should start off this very minute. Think about and if you think you can try then please do try and give it a shot."

I nodded at him thinking if I could do it or not when Adam said:

"I'll see you around. Don't think so hard you'll have a headache" he joked.

I smiled at him as he walked away.

I headed towards my locker as I felt my heartbeat increase suddenly. I could smell the very familiar Hugo Boss perfume I loved. And I knew he is near me. I turned to my side and came face to face with him.

"Hi, Elizabeth." He smiled at me and walked away.

Elizabeth? He called me Elizabeth? Why didn't he call me El? Why didn't you Edward?

'Because you told him not too!' My conscience all but screamed. Yeah I did. So does that mean he's trying and changing himself? I guess he is. And if he can so can I. I will also try. Yes, I'll try.