Possessed and Possessive (Completed)

Chapter 24: What's up with him?

Enjoy. Next update will be posted tomorrow. Not well.

-S

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El's POV

I was awake but I stayed in bed. I was jittery thinking about spending the time with Ed on the beach, the beach where it all started. I closed my eyes and thought of his extremely endearing and heart wrenching confession of his love on the beach:

"I love you. I love everything about you. The way you quarrel with me on petty things, and then the way you smile when you win. The way you shriek when I drive too fast and the way you always sleep in the car like a baby. The way you always have to take a bite of my food and the way you twitch your nose to tell me you don’t like it, even when you do. I love the way you are lost in a book and the way you laugh on silly jokes. I love how you can talk to anyone and make their day, even the janitor at school. I love you a lot. And after you I can never, ever love. Because you will be the death of me. And I still love you. A lot.”

My heart beat rose a thousand times as I explicitly remembered Ed's face and the love that shone on it, Ed's eyes and the love that sparkled in them and Ed's hands that had rubbed my back and the shots of love and excitement they had left wherever they touched.

It was on the beach when he had kissed me for the first time. And it was on the beach where I had experienced my first kiss. With my heart thumping in my chest I remembered the first kiss we had shared and how I had felt:

He smiled at me and then looked at my lips. I licked my lips in anticipation. I felt his breath hot on my face and I closed my eyes. In mere seconds his lips touched mine. Oh God, they were so soft. So soft. I took a sharp intake of breath as his lips brushed against mine again and this it was rough. I felt myself pulling him closer to myself as I kissed him back with all the love I felt for him. And he did the same. The kiss contained all his love, passion and excitement. I felt his thumb making circles on my back making me feel shots of excitement run through my body. Ed pulled me to him and I did the same. His lips were driving me crazy and when I felt I couldn't have it anymore his tongue rubbed against my lower lip and I gasped. My gasp led to him sliding his tongue in my mouth and in that very instant the train of sane thoughts stopped inside my mind. I heard myself moan as I felt his tongue rub the inside of my mouth. I could see the fireworks people say the see when they experience a perfect kiss. I felt a thousand butterflies and mice dance in my stomach as I imitated Ed and slid my tongue in his mouth. In that very moment Ed grunted and it was my giving. I kissed him back copying what he'd done before. After what felt like centuries we pulled away for air. I looked up in Ed's eyes only to see love gleam in his eyes which he confirmed by saying:

“I love you, El. A lot."

Sigh! How am I supposed to spend time with him on the beach when all it will do is remind me of  our kiss and love. If only I had known Hayley was blackmailing then I would have done something. Well, most probably not. I love Hayley a lot and I can never ever say no to her.

I sighed and got out of the bed to change. I chose a pair of denim shorts and a plain tee. I walked downstairs and greeted Rhonda with kiss and helped myself to a glass of juice and a slice of toast. I then told Rhona I am going to the beach for a walk not making her privy to the details. Although I felt guilty about it but I kept my mouth shut. I was in no mood for a lecture. In addition, I have no option to avail. I can't break Hayley's heart.

As I walked towards the beach I pondered about how to greet him. C'mon Beth, its not a big deal. I'll see him and say Hello Ed whats up, eh?

No No No!!! That sounds like I am meeting with a pal or something. And he is so not MY pal. Who says pal, anyway? He's my ex for God's sake! Okay so I'd be like Hi Ed. No No No! That'll sound like I am shy or something. And I am not feeling shy, am I? Am I or am I not? Ughhh!! Forget it! i'll just decide what to do in the moment. I have never been a planner anyway.

I marched towards the beach only to stop and look for Ed and Hayley. I spotted Hayley playing in  the sand. She's just too adorable. I am so jealous of Ed for having such a cute and lovely sister. Seriously, why couldn't mom have another kid after me?! I hate being a single child. Its so boring. Anywayyy where is Ed?! How reckless of him to leave his baby sister all alone and wander off. Stupid! I jogged towards Hayley and once I reached her, I bent down an said:

"Hey Hayley, thats really beautiful." as I referred to the sand castle she was building.

Hayley looked up at me, hearing my voice and gave me a big toothy smile. She stood up and hugged me as she said:

"Ellie!!! You're here!!"

I laughed and said: 

"Yes I am here. You're having fun?"

"No I was bored. Eddie won't play with me. He is sitting there all sad." Hayley said with sadness tinged in her voice. 

I looked up and saw where she had pointed at. There I saw Ed sitting lost in thoughts. I gulped and my breath got caught in my throat as I stared at him. He looked like a Greek god sitting on the sands in just a pair of red shorts. His chest was tanned and gleamed in the sun. Light from the sun shone on his hair and made it look like locks of gold. He is absouletly breathtaking.  But he looks sad. He isn't noticing any of the girls who're looking at him and gigling, I realized with confusion. Well, thank God he didn't notice them.

Why are you jealous?

Oh please Mr. Conscience. I just don't want things to be weirder.

Yeah yeah.

Shutup.

Anyway. why is he sad? Does he not want me here? Is he avoiding me? OMG, why didn't I realize that before? I almost ran away from him that night when we talked. Of course he wouldn't be wanting me here with them after that.

I felt a lump of sadness built up in my chest as I sat down on the sand with Hayley to play with her. No matter what Ed wants I am gonna stay here and play with this small ball of cuteness. Hayley looked at me and smiled and asked:

"You wanna play too, Ellie?"

"Of course, Hayley. Thats why I am here."

Hayley smiled back at my reply and handed me the shovel. We built the castle for a while. The entire time I kept glancing at Ed but he did not even spare us a single glance. Ass! I saw Hayley looking at me as I looked at Ed and said:

"Are you both fighting, Ellie?"

"No!" I quickly replied.

"Then why are you not talking to him?" She persisted.

"Because he is sad. Lets go and have an ice cream Hayley." I tried to evade the topic.

"No, you go talk to Eddie first." She insisted back.

"But he wants to be alone Hayley. I can't disturb him right now." I tried and explained it to her.

"Yes because he is sad." She replied with a sad face.

My heart tore at her expression and I asked her:

"Why is he sad?"

"Because she called, She made Eddie angry and sad. He was scary. He won't talk to me too. He came and sat there. He didn't play with me. he didn't even call me Hay Hay, Ellie." 

Hayley said as tears ran down her face.

I quickly picked her up and hugged her. Who called? Who is she? Who made him angry. I hushed Hayley and picked her up to buy her ice cream. As we bought ice cream I decided to talk to Ed. I don't need to know why is he sad. But I defenitely need to explain him that he is making Hayley sad and afraid of him. And thats not a good thing!!

On our way back from the ice cream shop, Hayley and I ran into Hayley's best friend and her mother. As I left Hayley with her friend as her friend's mother looked after them, I walked towards Ed. I need to talk to him. I need to know what's up with him. Why is he so sad?!