{LEVIHAN} My True Lover

Chapter 15: Birth of a New Yandere

After traveling, escaping from public places, we finally settled in the city. Yes, they had many law enforcement there... but it's so big to the point where it won't draw attention to people. Even for me... I had to. We spent 9 months, hiding out in abandoned houses, buildings, and cottages... but it never felt like home. It was Hanji's request to stay in the city, at least for our child...

Renting a small apartment, we were finally settling, for a bit. Hanji trusted me to help pick things out for the baby... but to be honest, I didn't care what the baby got... as long as Hanji was safe. Over and over in my head, I kept running a list of terrible things that might happen to her... and I wasn't allowing that...

Oh well... I have no power over anything like that... so I have to wait. Wait for my child to come...

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"L-Levi..." She cries softly to me, after that excruciating pain... the nurses were still cleaning the baby, and I ignored everything around me... she sounded so weak. Her forehead was wet with sweat and that her eyes were weakening... she couldn't die...

"Hanji." I kissed her lips, gripping tightly onto her hand... I didn't want her to leave me... not now... not ever.

She smirks, "Not like I'm leaving you that quickly..."

"It's a boy..." A nurse say, gently handing him over to Hanji.

Hanji looks at him, smiling. "Look how handsome he is..." She says, stroking his cheek gently. 

He coos softly, but... I can't see him the way she seems him. Since he was a boy and my son... he carries my curse as well. That's why... I wished the baby was a girl. But, the world doesn't work like that... deep in my heart, I wished I never met Hanji... that way, I could've stopped this curse, that way, I wouldn't have my son bear the weight as I am.

"Levi... I have a list of names I want to name him... so, can I?" She asks as her pointer finger was being wrapped by his tiny hands.

"Go ahead." I say, kissing her forehead. "He's your son as well..." Why couldn't the baby be a girl? I'm the cause of it... and I don't deserve how happy I've been feeling. I don't deserve to be around Hanji if I'm passing my curse down.

But what was so happy... was that she smiles, kissing his small forehead. "Marshall... Marshall Alexander... Zoe-Ackerman."

When he opens his eyes... they were Hanji's... he had her beautiful hazel eyes. Just seeing them... I couldn't abandon him, and if it was my fault for him, I'll clean it up. If I leave him, I'm leaving my burdens to Hanji... and she doesn't deserve it. But I know deep inside, he's just like me. An empty shell, with no emotions whatsoever. A killer deep inside, ready to strike when something comes near his lover...

Hanji turns to me, holding Marshall out. She smiles her beautiful smile on her face, "Go on... have a father/son moment... he's not just my son, but yours as well..." After I take him, her smile faded. "L-Levi..."

Taking him, I held him the correct way, the way that Hanji keeps nagging me about. He looks at me with his mother's hazel eyes, cooing softly... and I knew that he was just like me. "Look at you..." I say, feeling my voice become emotionless...

Hanji's smile completely faded. "Oh... I see... did you want a girl?" Her voice was on the edge of crying, but I kissed her hand. "L-Levi, I forgot-"

"It's not your fault the baby was a boy..." I say, gently bouncing him in my arms. "Besides... he's your kid as well..." Nuzzling her neck, kissing it, I felt her tense state fading. "We'll raise him as if he's normal, Hanji... and I don't mind if he is like me or not... as long as I'm with you, I'm fine with that..." I say, kissing her.

Her beautiful sparkly smile appeared on her face once more. "Thanks... maybe..." She starts yawn, laying her tired head on my shoulder. I watched her eyes flutter down. "Maybe we can have a baby girl next time..."

Chucking softly, I kissed her hand. "If you want... but still, I-I didn't mean to-" She shushes me, smiling softly.

"It doesn't matter... I'm glad to have your baby, Levi..."

Kissing her forehead, I whispered into her ear, "Maybe once our little one is a year old... then we can see about getting him a sibling... and this time, I wish it was a girl..."

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After she fell asleep, exhausted after giving birth, I decided to take Marshall around and... sighs... might be weird... but I do want to talk to him. Can I stop my damn curse from affecting others?

Looking down at him, he coos softly, not knowing the problem inside of him. My problem... my curse, that I poisoned onto him. "Marshall..." I say quietly, stroking his cheek, just like what Hanji did to him. "I'm sorry..." Deep inside, I wanted to cry for him, but I couldn't. I just... couldn't cry for him. "I'm sorry that I did this to you... put this damn curse onto someone as innocent as you. Please, I wonder... if you're willingly able to forgive me..."

Kissing his forehead, I wished he heard my words... because, it really wasn't my fault. I just... wanted to make sure that no one would take Hanji... that it was a promise that I'll return to her. But then... that made this little mistake. If I didn't fall for Hanji... Marshall would be someone else's kid, but perhaps normal... unlike me. Unlike my family... I just had to pass it on.

"I... I didn't mean for you to take this curse of mine... and I'm sorry. If only I was normal, Marshall... I would be a better father. But I'm not. I'm a stupid father who just wanted your mother all to myself. So please... forgive me..." I cry to him.

Why must I be cursed?