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Quick message :)

I want to formally thank you all for the love on G is for Gourmand.

I've struggled with weight issues my whole life. I wrote that one shot out of my experiences, how I feel, what I think, and how I act. I've always sort of thought that was just me. I've always thought that every compliment was a secret insult... because of my weight. That I didn't have friends... because of my weight. I blamed every problem I had on my weight. It got to a point where I did feel so self conscious about it that I refused to eat in front of people.

And though this was years back, and I'm learning to love myself and my looks, I guess I just never realized that tons of you may be going through the same thing.

I love that this touched people more than I hoped. I love that it means a lot to some of you as much as it meant to me. I never really noticed how much lack of representation there is for overweight/fat/chubby characters in book and TV. I scroll down my Instagram feed and see a plus sized model and for some reason I look through the comments to torture myself, knowing what awaits me. I see tons of people who pretend to be doctors and all of a sudden know that a person is obese and unhealthy and ugly because of their confidence and level of comfort in their skin. My heart dies a little bit when I see comments like "why are you promoting obesity?" "Fat people deserve to get bullied. We're just trying to get them to be healthy!"

Because that makes total sense.... (please note my sarcasm)

I hate that characters in books and movies that are overweight are always 1. Depressed and struggle to lose weight the whole time and are miraculously happy with themselves and life or 2. Bullied. Treated awfully. Always the side best friend character. Never gets in a relationship. Barely has friends.

And I'm so sorry that the media has let you guys down and everyone down really. Even if my stupid one shot that was less than 3000 words gave you hope or made you feel better about yourselves, then I'm happy I wrote it. And the more I'm thinking about it, I've never read a fanfic on this site with a main character who was overweight.

I kinda wanna change that.

And I'm not promising you anything because I'm going into my senior year and gosh I'm going away to college soon. I'm not sure what the future holds for me and fanfiction. But if there's one thing I put my mind out to do on this site, it was representing the people who never get talked about.

If that means writing a fanfic where the main character is overweight with a healthy relationship, heart, mind, and body? Then I'll do it.

Look at me. Already thinking about breaking my no continuation rule. Y'all see what y'all do?

Again I just want to say thanks so much for the love on the chapter. It made me cry. I hope y'all know you guys literally mean so much to me. You always remind me of why I started writing in the first place. And to all of the people who support everything I write and just take a second to read into my crazy mind I'm so thankful. Okay sjakdksn I'm crying again.

All of you are so beautiful, cute, handsome, pretty, and gorgeous inside and out. And I mean that as it is, without the bullshit loopholes and hidden meanings.

DistressInDisguise x