Stay with me || Shawn Mendes

5. Go ahead judge me

She always had that about her, that look of otherness, of eyes that see things much too far, and of thoughts that wonder off the edge of the world.-Joanne Harrie

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*One month later*

"I don't care. We are watching 'The notebook'" Shawn says stubbornly and presses the play button for the big T.V.

"But it's going to be awkward Shawn!" I groan covering my face with a small pillow that was on the couch. It has already been a month, Shawn and I are getting closer and closer. His mom, Mrs. Mendes, I've met her just awhile ago and she is really nice and respectful. Although, I haven't met his dad yet. Shawn said he is on the road, traveling for his job, and I respect that.

Shawn shifts positions next to me to make himself comfortable as the movie's into starts. "Have you seen it before?" He asks.

"I've only hear of it." I say and he smiles looking at me sideways.

He takes the bowl full of popcorn from the coffee table in front of us and responds. "I'm glad."

It is five in the afternoon, and Shawn decided for us two to watch a movie in the basement. I couldn't refuse, so here we are now.
Don't get me wrong. I love romance and drama movies, but watching it with a guy just makes everything so awkward I guess. Although I hope I'm not the only one.

I make myself comfortable and start to actually pay attention to the movie instead of talking to myself.

After a few minutes of watching it there goes the kissing scenes.

Nope, I'm out.

I turn around to Shawn giving him an apologetic -not- smile."I gotta go to the bathroom." I say quickly and stand up, but Shawn's hand grabs my wrist and pulls me back down.

"You are not going anywhere." He says so sure of himself and puts an arm around me so I really wouldn't go anywhere. I mean, I shouldn't even try here. His strength is way out of my world. Of course, I am not that weak, but; have you seen his muscles?

Right. Let's not even go there.

I sigh and try to focus at the movie. With him being so close to me, how is it possible for me to even think at this moment?
His body heat is generating against mine as he has his arms wrapped around me and I can feel every breath that he is taking. With my palms placed on top of his chest I can feel his heart beat.

If I were allowed I would stuff my face into his neck, so I could smell his soft scent that I love so much.

Okay there Rose, you're kind of getting carried away there.

Back to the movie.

So eventually we finish watching the movie after an hour or so. Nothing really happens. I almost cry but Surely recover really fast before Shawn would notice. I am an emotional person, but being in front of someone I don't seem like it at all.

Shawn goes and turns the lights on and then comes back in front of me folding his arms against his chest and raising his eyebrows at me, as if he is waiting for me to say something.

"Okay, okay. Fine." I say throwing my hands in the air. "I gotta admit this was an amazing movie."

"And..?" He asks mentioning me to continue.

"And what?"

"And that you loved watching it with me." He puts on one of those big smiles of his.

"What? No, I actually didn't." I lie crossing my arms looking away from him.

"Oh, yes you did." He takes a step forward and gets closer to me. "Say it."