Stay with me || Shawn Mendes

12. It was a bad idea.

I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. The. I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more.-unknown

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"I was looking everywhere for you!" He lies in my face and my heart breaks once more, if that is even possible.

"Looking for me? Yeah, right." Sarcasm is ringing in my voice. "I bet you were so worried and searching the place so well, that you found that girl instead of me."

"Rose. It was just a game."

"Of course. Life is a game, isn't it?"

"No, no it's not, but-"

"Shawn I really don't want to know. You can keep it to yourself." I shake my head. "For goodness sakes were not even a couple! So there is no need for you to report where you go, with who you hang out, and if you make out with any girl. You go do whatever you want! Go!" I show him with my hands. "I shouldn't be the reason to stop you."

He looks at me opening his mouth and the closing it back. After saying all of those words it's like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders.
"I wanna go home." I tell Shawn turning my head slightly so he could hear me.

We walk quietly on the path that leads to the parking lot in a complete silence.

"...It was a bad idea." Out of nowhere I hear Shawn murmur beside me

"Huh? What was a bad idea?"

"Oh nothin." He says quickly and then takes a few more moments to think. "Did I really say that out loud?" He asks me, and even in the dark I could see his cheeks turning pink.

"Uh huh."

"I'm so... ugh." He runs a hand through his hand and I look at him confused crossing my arms over my chest.

"I... T-Today, I don't know... I was trying to be a different person."

"Why would you try to be someone that you're not Shawn?" I ask after I hear how nervous he is. He looks down and then look at me in the eyes. I look ahead of me and see everyone waiting at the car.

"I can't- I don't know." He gets his car keys out and unlocks the car letting everyone in. I take a seat in the back, sitting next to Jack Gilinsky.

Why was he trying to be a different person?
Maybe he was trying to impress?

Yeah, keep dreaming Rose.

Maybe he was just trying something new?

Well, whatever he was trying to do I surely dislike it. I like the old and sweet Shawn much better than the Shawn today.

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"What's wrong?" Aaliyah asks me that for the tenth time this night.

She comes in my room jumping on my bed and I take a tighter grip of my pencil. She examines my face and then the sketches that I've made in my notebook.
I look up raising an eyebrow at her.

"I told you so many times Aaliyah! There is nothing wrong." I reassure her.

"Well then why aren't you downstairs with me Shawn and Emma?!" She asks as if it's the most obvious question. It is already eleven o'clock, so I am supper tired since going to the fair has taken all of my energy out.

"I just don't feel like it. Plus I should probably get going to sleep." I tell her closing my notebook and jumping out of the bed.

"Whatever. But I do know that there is something going on. And I have a feeling that it has something to do between you and Shawn." She taps her chin, squeezing her eyes to show that she is "thinking".