Stay with me || Shawn Mendes

16. Like the stars in the sky

The hardest things to say are the ones that mean the most.-unknown

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"I said let go of me!" I kick angrily but the guys are much stronger than me. Fighting is worthless compared to the muscles that pop out of their t-shirts.

I am so disgusted by the way they are using me. Every time their hands touch my body I just want to bury myself underground. I never wanted to escape from someone's hands so bad.

One of the guys harshly grab my face in their hands to kiss me but I manage to spit in his face.

Wrong move Rose. Wrong move.

He wipes the spit that is on his face and looks me in the eyes. If glares could kill I would be dead by now. Goosebumps ran down my spine as he grabs my wrist in his big hand. The way he is holding it, it hurts me.

"Is this the way you wanna play, baby doll?" He clinches his jaw and that is when I thought it is all over. He raises his muscular arm ready to make contact with my face. I squeeze my eyes shut, waiting for the pain to rush through my body... but the hand doesn't touch me.

I quickly open my eyes just to see the guy that was holding me being thrown on the ground.
My heart raises it's speed as I realize that Shawn is the one on top of him. He seems much bigger than them and much stronger. With a couple of fast and hard punches, Shawn sends the guy to sleep.

Just as he stands off of the guy laying on the ground, the other two standing besides me take off running away.

"This should be a lesson!" Shawn yelled at them just as they disappears around the corner.
A huge release travels through my body as I know that I an safe now.

I smile widely but it fades away when my eyes meet Shawn's.

I swallow hard.

Never have I felt so guilty in my life. If I could go back in time right now, I would change everything and listen to the one that cares enough for me. But it's too late. I can't hide from him.

I look down and bit my lip hopping that what will happen next will not scare the living out of me. I take a quick glance at Shawn who is now shaking his head in disappointment. He doesn't look at me but just turns around and starts walking away from me.

I stand there in shock.

"Hey!" I yell furrowing my eyebrows. I start running after him just before he disappears behind the building that leads to the main street. "Shawn!" I throw my hands in the air running out of breath. What the heck?
He is getting closer to his car and I am still not catching up with him. My heart is beating out of my chest.

"Are you really leaving me behind?!" My voice cracks. He opens the door of his car which was apparently unlocked and sits in the front. I come to a stop and catch my breath.

I cross my arms as my chest is starting to hurt.

Is this it? Is this really his final decision? Leaving me here? I mean yeah, I didn't listen to him and I made a mistake, which could've ended up really bad. But now that I know, I won't do it again. Why can't he understand that?

I breath in deeply feeling my eyes get watery. Is this the real him? The one who doesn't care and doesn't give second chances? Was I wrong about him this whole time?

I stay there looking at him through the window. Maybe he will raise his head just a little bit, and maybe... maybe just then he will see the hurt in my eyes.

I've finally had enough. I turn around on my heels and walk away. Hot tears escape my eyes making it hard to see where I am going. And where can I go? Where could I run to? No one. I'm just a lonely human on this earth with no home where to live, no one to love and care for me. What am I even doing in this world?
Surviving. That's what is called.

No wonder Shawn is leaving me behind. He tried to help me and look what I do? Can't even listen to what he is telling me.

I come to realize that the tears are starting to drawn me. I quickly try to wipe them away but they wouldn't stop coming out of my eyes. It's like a waterfall.

I don't bother to look back and see if Shawn is coming or not, because I am sure he isn't, although a part of me hopes he will. A part of me hopes that he will look up and see that I'm not there.
I guess that's not gonna happen.

I keep on walking, going nowhere. I am just walking where my feet were dragging me to.

"Rose!" I hear behind me.
Well, there you go.

I keep on walking and don't look back at Shawn.

"Hey." He grabs my elbow and turns me around to face him. I sniff looking at his blurry face. I wipe the tears and my vision is clear now. "What are you doing?" He asks letting go of my elbow.

"Does it matter?" I sniff again looking down at my feet.

"Apparently it does." Shawn says looking serious at me.

"How Shawn?! How? When all you do is leave me behind?" I cry angrily. Just as I thought that I was done with the tears, there they come.

"Do you even know how I felt?!" Shawn raises his voice. "Do you even know how I felt when you were nowhere to be found?!" He runs a hand through his hair in frustration and then looks at me again. I take a sharp breath holding it in; trying to stop the tears. "No! You don't know Rose! You have no idea! I thought that I lost you. Scary things started filling up my mind after I went into the purple moon and found out that you weren't there. It was like someone shoot me in the chest. Hell. I even wish someone had shoot me if I would of not found you!" He takes me by my shoulders so I can look straight at him. "You. Rose. You-you make me go crazy. I care about you, more than I've ever cared for anyone." His voice is shaking by now and he lets go of me.

"I'm an empty sky and you're the stars. You are the one that fills me up. And without I'm just nothing. Without your shine my life would be empty." Shawn says his last words and I don't think I can feel my legs anymore. I am so speechless, I can feel myself falling for him. The words that left his mouth are hard to believe, but my heart knows that those aren't lies.

"Rose... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every single thing that made you sad. I'm sorry for leaving you behind...I'm sorry. I really am. I-I know I'm an idiot. No, I'm actually more than an idiot- I don't know... I'm an-" And that was when my heart took over my brain and I crashed my lips into his.

My stomach explodes with butterflies and fireworks is just seconds. The feeling that I've never felt before. At first he doesn't respond back so in fear that I've made a mistake, I quickly let go of him and take a step back. But just as I let go of him he grabs me by my waist and brings me as close to his body as I've ever been. His sweet scent fills my nostrils making me feel some type of way. He brings his lips down to mine and kisses me. This time, it was him.

His lips are soft and gentle. Our lips move in sync as he travels his hands up and down my waist. I wrap my hands around his neck and run my fingers through his soft hair. The way our lips connect together made the whole world stop around us. The kiss is passionate and he is so careful. After a few more seconds he lets go of my lips but not of my waist. He looks at me breathless smiling.

"You might be an idiot. But you're my idiot." I tease him.

"Does that mean I can have another kiss?"

"Now, you're an idiot."

"A cute one?" Shawn says wiggling his eyebrows.

"More of a hot one."