Bad Luck or Fate?

Chapter 45

I was sitting in the chair with my head in my hands. Jimmy was alive but the surgery was messy and not simple. Drew told me she lost him a couple times but that he was a fighter and came back. He made it through the surgery but the next 48 hours were going to be crucial to his recovery. I wiped some tears from my eyes as I heard footsteps come towards me. 

"Brecks?" I looked up with tears in my eyes again. "Someone is asking for you." Drew said as she smiled at me.  I stood up. "He... he's awake?" I said. Drew nodded. "Yeah, he is. The first person he asked for was you." She said as she helped me out of my chair. 

His mom stood up. "Do you need me to go in there with you? I can." She said walking over to me. Drew cleared her throat. "Actually, Mrs. Fallon, I would love to let you all in at once but with Jimmy's condition that he is in and the massive amount of shock that his body is going through, I would really feel more comfortable if only one person was in the room at a time. I'm sorry. It's just with the tubing and all the machines he is hooked to. It's just better this way." She said as she led me to the door. I turned and looked their way. "I promise I will let you in as soon as I am done talking to him." 

Gloria shook her head. "No worries dear, we can see him. You guys need to see each other, it will help heal my baby." She walked up giving me a hug and whispered. "We love you, Breckyn." I pulled back and stared at them. She nodded and waved her hand. "Go! Go see our boy." She smiled with tears in her eyes and I hugged her again. "I love you too, Momma." I said as I let go and walked with Drew back to the ICU.

We walked up to a set of doors. I could hear beeping from multiple machines outside of the door. Drew went in before me to make sure everything was alright for me to come in. I had to put a gown on and scrub my hands before going in. With Jimmy just coming out of a complicated surgery, we didn't want to risk him coming in contact with any germs or anything foreign. Drew came back out as I was scrubbing my hands. She handed me a gown. "You need to know a few things before you go. He is not going to look great. His chest is covered in packs and gauze and bandages. He's gonna look like he just fought a horrendous battle and barely made it out. Because that's what he did. It's not going to be pretty. He's slipping in and out of sleep, which is normal. He was under a lot of anesthetic and his body has undergone a lot of trauma. The body's natural defense is to sleep through the healing. He may not remember much of what happened and he may fall asleep on you. It's all perfectly normal, Brecks. Just remember that." She said as I turned around with tears in my eyes. "Brecks. He's alive.. tonight could have been a lot worse." Drew said as she put the gown on me. 

"Thank you, Drew. Thank you so much for all this. For saving his life. You'll... you'll never..." I broke down crying again against her shoulder. "I know Brecks. You don't have to thank me. I love him too. You know I do. I'd do anything for that boy in there." She said as she laced up my gown. "You're still covered in his blood. Someone needs to take you to the house to go get you some clothes and clean up. You're absolutely soaked in blood, Breckyn." She whispered as she tried to clean some blood off my face. I stood back. "No, I want them to see what happened to him. I want them to see what they did to him." I said softly, menacingly.

Drew looked up at me with sadness in her eyes. "There's no one here to see that, Breck. No press, no cameras. Just you, me, him and our families. We already know what happened. Most of us are trying to just get through this next few days and try to forget the images we have in our heads from what happened. There's no one here to glorify this and there will be no one here to glorify this. This isn't New York. This isn't showbiz. This is real life and when things like this happen in real life? You have GOT to try your best to move on. You can stay in these clothes if you want to, but no one is going to see you like this. Not if I can help it. Now, Breckyn, I know people die. People die in front of me everyday but I believe Jimmy will survive this. Yes horrible things happen to people. I don't expect you to be happy in all this, I don't. I'm not insane, I'm just a realist. You don't have to put on a fake happy face. That's not the point.  I know that you have had one hell of a year, hell, Brecks, one hell of a life but I know you. I know you like the back of my hand. You are my sister. You are my best friend. I know you. I also know Jimmy. I know that you two have had one hell of a relationship, one that has stood through every challenge that was brought to you. I know that without a doubt in my mind, you'll make it through this, too. No matter how hard it gets, I know that it doesn't seem that way now, but I know that we will all survive this. We will all be okay. Going through all of this and knowing that you will survive it? That's the point, babe." She said putting her hand to my cheek and pushing the hair out of my eyes. "If you don't do it for yourself, then do it for that incredible man in there Breckyn. Do you realize how lucky you are? Jimmy is... he's a rarity in a world like ours. Do you know how often someone like him comes along?. You're so incredibly lucky and I hope after today you realize that. After all Jimmy has been through, after all you two have been through, he still believes in true love, and soulmates, and... happiness. And he's a fighter Brecks. He is such a fighter. He's a stubborn asshole, sure, but he doesn't give up. And he's strong. Jimmy still finds the happiness and the light in everything, even in the darkest of moments. I have never seen a happier person in my life, Breck. You know he tried to make me laugh in there when he woke up? I mean, he almost dies, who does that?" Drew let out a soft laugh. "Jimmy does.  He's your one in a million. Breck. Hell, he's a lot of people's one in a million but you are the one he chooses to share his life with and he's waiting for you. If you don't let this go, if you don't come back from this.. it will change him. So, get in there, tell that man you love him and just appreciate what you have in front of you. Its about what you think, not what the rest of this fucked up world thinks. So, live in the moment, be in the moment. Go, Breck. Be." She said as she opened the door for me.