Septiplier One shots

~Wonder~

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Do you remember us? Do you ever wonder what we could have been if you were still here? What would have happened if that man didn't drive after drink after drink? If he didn't hit you and leave you on the cold, wet road?
What if you were still here Mark?
Your shirts still smell like you, I try my best not to get myself in a mess when I see a picture of us around the apartment or when I think of all the memories we once shared.

Sleeping has been impossible. I don't have you there to keep me warm, I don't feel safe without your protective arms around me. It's like I've been stripped of everything I love. It was all out of my control and now you're gone. Taken from me.
I miss those midnight walks. Those movie marathons and TV show binge watches as we cuddle up on the sofa. Your arms around me, or your hands in my hair.
No matter where we were you were there. Our hands intertwined or our arms linked. We were connected.
It was me and you forever.

I found a box under the bed Mark. I opened it to find a ring, it had green diamonds on it and engraved on the inside was 'I love you Sean'.
When I first saw it I couldn't breathe. Tears were falling like a waterfall and I was choking as I tried to swallow back to sobs.
When were you going to ask?
We were going to be forever...

I hope you don't see the break downs and all the times I pull the pack of pills from the bathroom cupboard out. I just look at them.
I could end the pain now.
I could join you
But I don't.
I can here your voice, feel your touch.
You promised me that i'd be okay if something happened to you.
I remember your whispering 'I love you's' in my ear as I yet again break down.
Sometimes I still pretend you're there. I pretend that none of this happened. Because I miss you too much.
It's easier to pretend that nothing happened but it's also unfair to let myself hope that you are still here.
I miss you baby, I miss you so much.