Septiplier One shots

>Meaning<

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"YOU LIED, YOU LIED AND YOU THOUGHT I'D BE OKAY WITH IT?".

Crying, shedding tears in distress pain or sorrow.
Heart ache, emotional anguish or grief, typically caused by the loss or absence of someone loved.

"Didn't I cross your mind at all? Did you actually giVE A SHIT ABOUT ME?!"

Cheating, act dishonestly or unfairly in order to gain an advantage.
Broken, having given up all hope; despairing.

"I still love you... you've hurt me and I'm still madly in love you".

Breakdowns are something that have been put into my regular routine.
I've become so fragile, so breakable and frail. All the tears, crying until my eyes are dry and no matter how hard I try there's nothing left. I'm left limp on the floor, weak and there is nothing that I can do. I'm just stuck, stuck in a loop of affliction and torment.
I want everything to be okay again.

I can see him, I can see him and that other guy- it's inked into my brain, it's all I can see. I obviously wasn't good enough for him. It's okay, it's okay because I understand, I deserved it. Who could ever love me anyway.

'I didn't mean to hurt you'

Then why did you?
If you really cared you would have made sure I was okay, I wasn't in class for 2 weeks and you didn't even bother to check if I was still alive or not.
Even when I came back to class you didn't question my faded hair, long nails and bandaged wrist, you barely even looked at me.
I miss the time when you used to look at me.
You didn't even care where we were, at a restaurant, out with friends, you did not give a shit. You would look at me until I told you to stop, you would stare at me as if I was everything to you.
As if I was a shining star and god do I miss that.
I miss meaning something to you.
I miss meaning anything at all.