Kiss Me [COMPLETED]

Finale

Stephanie

April 5, 2005

I closed my eyes and firmly told to myself that I could totally do it. I was so scared that I was shaking. My body still hurt a little, but it was nothing compared to what I had to go through several weeks ago. I was limping, but the doctors said that it would go away after a while. All the time that I was trapped in the hospital bed, I kept thinking about how much I loved him. I wished I could make this feeling to go away, but it kept nagging me every single minute. There was not a single night that I wouldn't dream of him, his eyes, his voice. I talked to Trisha a lot lately, and I was so grateful to her for her forgiveness that I would often start crying around her. I told her about my feelings, and she just looked at me with her usual huge eyes, and then she just shrugged and shook her head.

..."It's not like I can help it..." I muttered, quickly checking myself in a little round mirror.

I had a plan. I promised to myself that I would not go crazy, and that I would not bother him. I just wanted to see him one last time, that's all.

I carefully knocked on the door, and it swung open a minute later.

"Hey," I said softly.

"Hey," he answered, looking at me cautiously. "How are you?"

"Good," I nodded and smiled. "Well, better anyway..."

"That's good," he nodded. "You look good."

"Thanks..."

"Anything you wanted?"

"Yeah..." I muttered and looked into his eyes that took my breath away again.

I shook my head and looked away.

"I just wanna say that... I'm not going to bug you anymore... I am going to leave you alone... I just..." I coughed, wishing for him to say something, but he just looked at me silently. "I just want you to know something... I was thinking and... I was such a mess... And nothing made sense and... and... I was thinking..." I realized that I was blabbering and stopped.

I took a deep breath and looked at him again.

"I just want you to know that I love you," I said quietly and walked away without waiting for his reply, knowing that he wouldn't say anything.

...I was slowly walking towards my house, and tears burned my eyes. I started thinking about school, and how I was going to go back there next semester. I decided to concentrate on my studying for real, and was thinking about advanced algebra, when suddenly, a car pulled to the curb and stopped right next to me. I looked at it and just blinked. It was his car. He rolled down the window and looked at me with really tired eyes.

"Get in," he said shortly. "Let's go eat, I am hungry."

I stood on the sidewalk, unable to move, and tears slowly rolled down my face. He sighed, turned off the car, got out, and walked towards me, his sunglasses reflecting April sun. He stopped in front of me and took me by the shoulders.

"Let's go eat, freak," he said softly, and I just buried my face in his chest, almost going insane from his familiar scent, and started to sob. It seemed that I needed to hit my head on the steering wheel of Billy's convertible in order to see clearly, as if the impact immediately knocked all idiocy out of my head.

"Jesus," he sighed. "Palmer, you are one extremely weird, insane person, you know... And I must be insane as well, since I can't let you go for some strange reason..."

"We are all mad here," I grumbled, quoting the Cheshire Cat, and I could feel his breath on my skin when he laughed softly.

"I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then," he said quietly, quoting Alice, and I almost started sobbing again.

He pulled away and slightly shook me.

"Stop that," he said sternly. "People will think that I am trying to murder your baby or something..."

I laughed at that.

"Danny, I am sorry," I said, and he rolled his eyes.

"Get in the car, freak," he said. "If you are going to start bawling again, I'd like for you not to do so in public..."

"Danny..."

"What?"

"I love you..."

"I love you too, freak."

"Danny..."

"What?"

"Happy birthday..."

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