Finding Mister Right

Chapter 15

After Andrew, Clarisse went totally out of control, she went wild and crazy. She just doesn't care anymore kung sinu-sino na lang ang nakakasiping niya. She can't even count them anymore and the worst part of that is no matter how hard she tried hindi pa rin niya nakakalimutan si Gregory. She's been with Andrew, Paul, Richard, Allan, Louis at kung sinu-sino pa, ang iba hindi na nga niya maalala ang mga mukha at pangalan just to forget the man that her heart desired pero hindi pa rin niya ito natatanggal sa kanyang isipan. She's doomed and she knows that dahil she's at the point where she doesn't even like herself anymore. It's been a year since the last time na pumunta si Gregory sa condo niya. It's been a year since inaway niya si Bianca sa pool. Since then she kept having a party in her place in a hope na dumalo si Gregory but he never did. Siguro ay galit na galit ito sa kanya after what she did to Bianca, kasi after that incident ay nagmamadaling umalis sina Gregory at Bianca. She's always wondering about him... It's been a year since huli niyang mahalikan ang mga labi nito at mayakap ang lalaking minamahal niya. It's been a year since naging magulo ang buhay niya, she doesn't know how to fix it, her life is a mess. Wala siyang serious relationship, she never went on a date with a guy because she only hook up with them for sex and then forget about them, she doesn't even tell them her real name. She has become her worse enemy she kept looking for her old self but she can't see her anymore. She's totally liberated now, laging nadi-disco at kung saan-saan na lang siya nagigising with a male na hindi naman niya kilala. She can't erase all of her mistakes, nagpatong-patong na lahat ng mga kalukuhang ginagawa niya and they're eating her up, and she knows that eventually all of it will haunt her. All she wanted in life was Gregory but it's all too hazy for her now because she is at the peak of her self-destruction. She'd give up everything just to have the man that her heart desires pero looks like it's impossible. Actually she's not even sure if she really wanted him, maybe he is just using him as an excuse para lang mawala ang guilt niya tuwing may ka-sex siyang iba. She is a mess... gone are the days na simple lang ang pinaghuhugutan niya ng kaligayahan but now she find it so hard to be happy. Mabuti pa ang mga kaibigan niya masaya na sa kani-kanilang mga buhay. Si Bashang tanggap na ng mga magulang ang pagiging bakla nito. Si Liz ay masaya na bilang housewife, samantalang si Irene naman ay natuloy ang career nito sa Hong Kong, Si Manolo ay nasa Dubai na at si Vince naman ay lumipat na sa Cebu with his wife Lucy dahil may business venture ang dalawa doon. Siya? she's nothing... kahit pa anak siya ng congressman at anak ng pinakamayamang pamilya sa Surigao but even that thought doesn't make her happy anymore... her heart wanted something but she's totally lost. Para siyang naliligaw mag-isa sa isang malaking gubat, she can't find her way out... she's just running around, screaming for help but there's no one out there that can help her... she felt trapped.

It was early morning nang magring ang kanyang phone. kahit sumasakit ang kanyang ulo dahil sa hangover from last night's party at antok napilitan siyang sagutin ito dahil ang kanyang mommy ang caller. DAhil sa sobrang kalasingan niya kagabi nakatulog na lang siya sa kanyang sala, she didn't even get the chance to change into her pajamas.

"hello mom?"

"A-anak... ang daddy mo... w-wala na.." She cleared her head at tila umiikot ang paligid niya. Tama ba ang narinig niya? "t-tinambangan ang convoy nila. napatay ang daddy mo at at lima niyang body guard pati ang driver nila...anak.. I don't know that to do... n-nasa hospital ako ngayon"humahagulgol ang kanyang mommy while she just froze, she wanted to scream pero tila walang boses na lumabas sa mga bibig niya. Tears just poured out of her, she's helpless, she can't think, hindi niya alam kung ano ang gagawin. Once again her world has been shattered into pieces. Nagdilim ang paningin niya and she passed out.

She woke up in her own bedroom, she can't remember how she got there, she is confused. Nanaginip lang ba siya na namatay ang daddy niya? She looked at the alarm clock on her bed side table 10:42am. Hinahanap niya ang phone niya pero hindi niya ito makita. She slowly stood up, she is a bit dizzy and she wanted to vomit... she is thinking of going to her bathroom but all of a sudden she can hear some noise in her kitchen, parang may nagluluto.