I'm Okay ~ Shoey

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

~Shane's POV~

Who knew that completing a bucket list would so much hard work? Joey's supposed to be the sick one and I'm the one that's out of breath!

So far, we've managed to:

• cover a car entirely in post-it-notes;

• learn the alphabet backwards;

• do a flash mob (during chemo with the nurses)

They're only dumb little things really, but the look on Joey's face was perfect. There was a definite sparkle in his eyes.

I was sat on the couch enjoying a tub of protein powder ice cream while Joey took his mid day nap. The tv was on pretty loud and Sawyer was playing some dumb video game with guns and gangs and whatever else. Joey had his radio on in his room. He liked the theatre station, where they do small plays and stuff. Settled him to sleep I guess?

I checked over his bucket list again. I wanted to do all the big things first, so then if we ran out if time for the little ones, I wouldn't feel quite as bad.

"Which one will you do next?" Sawyer asked, pausing his game to pull of his socks and see what I was doing.

"Dunno. Joey wants to go to the zoo and feed animals at some point this week, so I'll need to organise that soon. But tonight I think we'll do the fireworks display" I sighed, rubbing my eyes. I'm so exhausted.

"Don't set a fire though okay?" He joked.

"I won't, don't worry." I yawned.

"You look like shite. Go take a nap? I'll keep check on Joey and make sure he's doing okay. You go relax for a while" he said, nudging me with his elbow.

"No, I've still got things to do-"

"You do so much already. Go sleep" he said, firmly grasping my shoulder. I sighed, and agreed to go take some time to myself for an hour. But I needed to check on Joey first, just to be sure.

I pushed his door open a little, poking my head into his room. He'd closed his curtains, and put his calming lamp on that shone stars around the room. He liked that.

"Shane?" He grumbled from under his sheets. I tip toed closer to his bed, accidentally stepping on his shark plush.

"Hey baby" I whispered, sitting on the edge of his bed and using my thumb to rub his cheek.

"I can't sleep" he said, rolling from his side onto his back to look up at me. "Snuggle with me?"

I agreed, kicking off my shoes and slipping under the sheets with him. It was an impulse to just pull his body closer to mine and rub his back. I wondered if he'd fall asleep easier now that I'm here, but sometimes that back fires.

"What's Sawyer doing?" He asked, tilting his head up to look up at me.

"Playing video games. He had a busy shift at work yesterday" I shrugged. Joey nodded in response and we just ended up looking at each other. Nothing more than admiring really.

I couldn't help what happened next. I slid my hand that was Joey's lower back up to his neck, slowly. Then I pulled his lips to mine in our first kiss. It was everything I'd imagined it would be. Fireworks exploded around a us, the earth stopped spinning, and everything in the world got brighter.

Joey's hands grasped onto my shirt tightly. I opened an eye slightly, noticing that both of his were closed. I could feel his oxygen tube against my nose but it didn't bother me, or ruin the kiss in any way.

Our lips developed a rhythm, and our tongues joined the dance. Joey tasted delightful. Like id always imagined he would. He was sweet, and soft. His lips were perfectly in time with mine, and my stomach erupted with butterflies.

We broke apart when Joey needed to catch his breath a little. I smiled at him and he blushed a little. I chuckled, kissing his cheek. "Guess I can cross another thing of my list now" he whispered, his arms wrapped around my neck.

"What's that?" I asked in a whisper, pulling him even closer. I was certain he could feel my hard on against his leg. I stole another long kids before he could answer.

"True loves first kiss" he said after we broke apart. I kissed him even more, harder this time. I could help myself, but I rolled on top of him, keeping all my weight on my arms and not directly on him. "I love you Shane"

"I love you more, Joey" I said, a warmth buzzing inside of me. I knew I needed more of his deliciousness. His arms slid up my shirt and his fingers ran over my hot torso.

I kissed him again. He was perfect. His little purrs of delight only turned me on more. Our tongues went from soft touches to a battle of dominance. When we broke apart, I pulled off my shirt, pressing our naked chests together.

Our lips attacked once more, and I moved myself in between Joey's legs, our crotches rubbing together in hard unison. His moans of pleasure only made me push harder against him. After pulling off my jeans, we were both under the sheets in just our boxers. I could feel his long hard member against mine, causing me to moan out into his mouth as our lips refused to part.

My hand slipped into his shorts and his warm skin was soft and hot against my palm as tugged at pulled at him.

"Sh-Shane" he moaned, his eyes rolled all the way back into his head, enjoying the friction I'd created. I pulled down his boxers, as well as my own.

I sucked at his neck, creating the perfect little purple mark. The type that shows everyone that Joey Graceffa is mine.

I pressed my member against his, creating a hot and sexy inferno. He yelped loudly, causing me to moan. I needed every inch of his body immediately. I kissed his lips deeply, then created a train down his chest and to his stomach. "Oh my god" he whispered, more so to himself than any one else as I crept even closer to my destination. I lick down his staff, my hot breath making him shake and moan. I didn't tease to much. I took him in one sweep, sucking hard, tasting his juices.

"Shane!" He yelled, as I hummed softly with him in my mouth. This caused a soft vibration to run through him. I licked the tip as farewell as I returned to kissing his neck.

I aimed carefully. I'd been waiting for so long to fuck Joey. From the moment I met him I knew I wanted him in bed and to fuck him all night long. To make him scream so loud and make me cum inside of him. I've never felt so much love for someone like this before. I just wanted to prove my love to him.

"Wait" Joey said, his voice full of worry. Of course, I immediately stopped. Still laid over him with his legs wrapped around my waist. My hard on was still pressed against him ready to ram in.

"What's wrong?" I said, afraid I'd hurt him or something. I got off him, and laid beside him. He pulled the sheets right up to cover himself.

"It's just that, I don't really want to.." He couldn't get his words out. But I understood.

"I get it. You don't want some low life like me to be your first. I get it, it's fine really." I sighed, rolling out the bed and pulled my boxers on.

"Shane no!" He said quickly. I turned to look at him. "It's just that, I really like you, in fact I fucking love you! And I want it with you, fuck I really do. There's no one else I'd rather lose my virginity with than you" he said, tears swelling in his eyes. I got back into the bed with him, and he snuggled against my chest.

"Then what is it? Did I do something wrong? Should I have teased you more?" I rushed. He kissed my lips softly.

"I wanna be married before I lose it. So it means something" he sighed.

We stayed silent for a little while. I was drawing patterns on his back with my fingers softly while we laid in silence. Then I realised what I had to do.

I'd have to marry him.

And I will.