I'm Okay ~ Shoey

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

~Joey's POV~

I have to admit that in the last few days, Shane has been acting very strange around me. Like, more so than he usually does. Its as if i've said no to him screwing me, and now he's lost interest. He's so distant, it's like he doesn't even give a crap about me anymore. Sawyer said I had nothing to worry about, but how would he know what was going on. I'm still not even sure if Shane and I are dating. But i have ticked off a few more things from my picket list. Like getting my first true loves kiss. That was a good one to scribble off.

It's 3am, and everyone's asleep. Sawyer's at work, but i'd assume he's in the cabins taking a nap, unless he's been called out to assist in a rescue or putting out a fire. But i haven't heard any sirens tonight. I like to keep my windows open at night so i can listen out for him on his night shifts. Its always nice to know how near or far he is from me. He really does like his new job as a fire fighter, and his uniform is so super cool. I made a joke about him being handsome in it, and Shane scoffed and walked off.

He's asleep right now to. I didn't have any proof, only that i knew he'd be asleep at this tim like he always is. I rolled over and gave a heavy sigh. I just wish Shane would quit being such a sour puss, and actually be like he was before. I miss him being by my side constantly asking if i'm okay. I hadn't realised how much i needed him around me, until he decided he didn't want to be anymore. Guess its because he knows I'm going to die sooner or later, and he doesn't want to be around for the blow. whatever. i don't need him. i don't need anyone. I'm perfectly happy on my own.

Suddenly, my chest felt very strained. Like a tight, knotting sensation taking over my lungs. i rubbed my bare chest, hoping it would subside as i rolled over onto my back to help my legs be relieved of the pressure. But it didn't change anything. It only got tighter and tighter as the oxygen decided not to co operate. Panic set in immediately as my entire body began to burn. The oxygen wasn't going through, that meant i couldn't breathe.

I was going to die.

i screamed, but nothing came out. I couldn't feel any part of my body as black spots came into my vision as i lost consciousness. I knew i was crying as i felt my life being sucked away. i take back my comment from before, i did need shane. i needed him right now beside me as i felt myself drifting off to some unconscious atmosphere. i was afraid. And all i wanted was for shane to be by my side and fix everything.

Within seconds, i wasn't breathing at all. It all stopped, and my body ached and begged for it. Darkness washed over me instantly and the panic began to fade away. As did the light from my room, and the noise from my bedroom radio. I was in total darkness and silence. The exact thing I feared would engulf me.

Was my death was upon me...