I'm Okay ~ Shoey

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

~Joey's POV~

"I want to die" I said out loud. I'd said it for weeks in my head, but now it's finally coming out. Shane held me closer as I sobbed into his neck. "Please let me die"

"You're gonna pull through Joey, I know you will" he said, but I could hear the pain building in his voice. He's lying and I know it.

We curled up on the sofa in the darkness. 3:07am and here he is comforting me while I beg for my death. It's coming. Death himself is stood in the doorway getting ready to take me.

I hadn't slept a wink. After the appointment we had been to that afternoon, I just couldn't bare to do anything else.

6 months.

That's all I have left to live until my lungs stop working and I choke to death. Even now it hurts with the oxygen being pumped directly into me. Will the rest of my life be behind a tube? More than likely. Unless we find a donor.

But for me to get a brand new set of lungs, someone else needs to die. Some other poor innocent soul needs to die before I can have their lungs to live. It's a vicious cycle. But it's the only way.

"Please" I whisper close to his ear. Our faces were pressed together, our tears merging into one wet mess.

"I love you" he croaked out, pulling back to look at me. I look back, tears fogging my vision. We didn't say anything more. Shane started to creep forward slowly, and eventually the space between us was closed. The feeling of his lips against mine made my heart flutter. He was soft and gentle, treating me like an intricate flower.

I deepened the kiss immediately. He smiled against my lips and I forced my tongue to explore the softness of his parted lips. He tasted amazing. His own tongue joined mine, and explored each other's mouths with ease. It was like we were made for each other.

Shane pulled back and looked at me with his dorky grin. He wiped my tears with his thumbs and kissed my nose.

"Things will get better Joey. I know it" he said as I laid against his chest.

"Shane?" I asked nervously while he played with the remains of my hair.

"Yeah?"

"Can we maybe look at the bucket list again?" I asked. There was only a few things on it. But I wanted to do them. With him.

"Sure we can. I promise you this: everything on that list we will do. And more. I'll show you the best time of your life, and then when you get better, you'll have so many amazing memories" he smiled.

"but I won't get better?"