Trust

~chapter eighteen~

Josie's p.o.v:
I have been sat crying for what seems like hours. I don't think Jack has moved so I don't want to go into the kitchen to get anything to eat. There has been little movement. I finally decided that I NEED to move, and slowly make my way to the door. I put my hand on the door handle and quickly wipe away my tears, my hand sits on the door handle but I don't want to move. I am scared of what he might say, or do. slowly I pull the door back and step out into the hallway. I see Jacks head pop up from the sofa. He tries to smile at me but I keep my eyes glued to the floor. I practically run into the kitchen and grab a can of Pepsi before I notice that Jack has been crying too. I want to run over and hug him... I can tell it kills him to see me like this, and not being able to help. I look back at the floor and walk back to Harv's bedroom. I hear a key unlocking the door and try to quickly scurry into the bedroom.
Harvey: babe...
I sigh: I'm in here!
he walks into the room and smiles at me: you mad?
I don't look at him: why would you think I am?
he walks up to me and puts his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder. I can hear him gently breathing into my ear.
Harvey: babe...
I shake my head: I am not mad...
Harvey: look at me then...
I slowly turn around but still looking at the ground: see not mad!
He places he's fingers under my chin and gently lifts my head up so I have to look at him. He looks into my eyes. Straight away he scowls
Harvey: you lied to me!
I shake my head: I didn't!
Harvey: you have been crying!
Me: so I didn't lie to you! I am not mad! I am upset! There is a fucking difference!!
I gently hit his chest with my fist! It makes a slight thud. But Harvey doesn't move. He pulls me in closer to his chest and I rest my head on his shoulder.
Me: I love you Harv...
Harvey: I love you too
He kisses my head. We stand in silence for a minute and then I back away.
I look at him and wipe my eyes: I don't deserve you...
He sits down on the bed and pulls me onto his lap so I am sitting sideways. He tilts my head so I am looking at him: you deserve more then me!
He gently kisses me. He places one of his hands on my cheek and the other around my waist. I throw my arms around his neck and the kiss carries on. I can feel the heat coming from his body.
God I love him!
Suddenly we hear the front door slam shut and I jump off him. It's not that we wanted to stop... but if rye came home and saw that he would go mental. I look at Harvey and he is smirking. I roll my eyes
Me: what...
Harvey: is that my jumper?
I shrug: maybe... I got cold okay!
He gets up and wraps his arms around my waist spinning me around in circles. Then rye and Ellie come in. Rye is carrying Ellie like a baby and she is fast asleep. I smile and take Harvey's hand.
Me: we will go...
Rye nods and me and Harvey walk out.
He picks me up and I wrap myself around him. We walk into the kitchen and Everyone is there.
I keep my head on Harvey's shoulder and he places me on the kitchen counter as he opens the fridge.
Jess is sitting on Andy's lap and smiles at me.
Jess: cuties!!!
Andy: I thought I was cute!!
Jess: you are babe! But they are adorable!
He nods and kisses her cheek.
Amelia is sitting on Mikey a bed with Mikey and Liv. Jack is staring at me and brook is looking at the floor.
Me: yeah... he's cute I don't know about me though!
Harvey looks at me and quickly kisses me before whispering in my ear: your beautiful and you know it!!
I smile and then look back at everyone: yeah he's definitely cute!
I can see jack at the corner of my eye he is staring at Harvey.
I jump on Harvey's back and he sits down on the arm of the sofa.
I swivel round and sit on his lap. Trying not to look at jack.
After about ten minutes Jack gets up in frustration and leaves the room. As he leaves he gestures for me to follow him.
Me: I am going to the loo...
Harvey nods and I kiss his cheek.
I leave and jack grabs my hand pulling me into his room.
Jack: are you doing that on purpose!
Me: Doing what!
Jack: you know what you were doing!!
Me: what loving my boyfriend! Am I not allowed to do that?
He scowls: are you trying to make me jealous!?
Me: no! In no way shape or form was I thinking about hurting you when I was hugging my boyfriend! What the fuck do you want from me jack!!
Jack: you know what I want!
Me: and like I said it's not going to happen!!
I try to leave but he grabs my hand and pulls me back.
Jack: no!
This all feels way to familiar and I start to tear up.
Me: JACK LET GO OF ME!!
I rip my hand away from him and run into the bathroom trying not to cry.
Fuck! Why does my life have to go like this!
I just want to go home...
After a while I hear a knock on the bathroom door.
Mikey: Josie you alright I need a shower.. but if you need more time in there for what ever reason take your time.
I laugh and slowly open the door.