Unintentional

Alyssa POV

Being at school feels like the last place I want to be. I know that Amy won't attend today. She had mentioned that yesterday evening, as well as other things.

I can't believe that Maria is her mother. I can't believe they never mentioned it to her. I feel like they should have done so even before her teen years. I don't know what their reasons were, so I try not to judge them. I can see that Maria is working very hard to get back a relationship with Amy.

My mind is filled with so many things. I miss Amy. I feel like I am going crazy not being able to talk to her. I want her touch. I want her persistent ways. I want her.

What if last night the person blackmailing me saw me when I visited Amy? I wasn't even thinking when I did that, but I truly just needed to see her. I knew in my heart that she was hurting for her to react like that in my classroom. Even if that person saw me, I'm glad I got a chance to see her. She needed someone to talk to, and I'm glad that person was me.

I pack my things and ready myself to leave school. I'm not going to watch the girls practice basketball today. Even that feels pointless now. I feel like I only want to watch Amy play. I get so bothered when I see how skilled she is. I see her muscles twitch with every little move that she makes. I see how the sweat runs over her skin.

I shake myself from my thoughts and take a glimpse into my rear view mirror. I quickly look again. That car. I know that car. That's Joy. Is she following me?

I drive to the nearby supermarket to see if she will pass. When I stop, she stops a couple hundred feet behind me. I want to see if she will come out. She doesn't. I open my door and don't even look in her direction. I make my way into the supermarket and pick up some things I don't even need. I make sure to look outside where she can't see me. She is still there. Hmm. What could she be up to?

I drive towards home, and I see Joy's car tailing me a distance behind. I get out and go inside my house. I go to my back window, where I know she won't see me, and I peek. Joy is parked in front of the neighbor's house. Will she stay there all night?

I proceed to shower and do what I have to do before I go to bed. I think to look outside to see if Joy is gone by now. To my surprise, her car is still parked in the same spot. I quickly check the time. 10:46 pm.

A weird feeling comes over me. I have so many questions that I want to ask, but I am afraid to know the answers. I double-check my locks and then go to bed.