Things couldn't get any better for Julia Andrew, the newest addition to the Jump Street team. She enjoys going undercover in high schools and gets along very well with her new colleagues, especially Tom Hanson who quickly became her best friend.
But...
I remained frozen in my spot for a minute, debating on whether I should go punch Tom in the face or if the best thing to do was to just calm down. Neither of the two possibilities seemed to be the good one though because I didn't want to make a scene here and I was also way too angry to calm down that easily. I swear Tom was lucky we weren't alone because I would have gone for the punch in the face without a split second of hesitation. I was so mad at him, more than I'd ever been at anyone before. I was entirely shaking and I could feel myself heating up by the seconds meaning I was literally about to explode. I felt just like a bomb about to blow up. My eyes began watering, probably due to the so many different emotions I was currenty experiencing coming out all at once.
First of all I was relieved to learn that my assignment to desk duty had actually nothing to do with me or whatever I did wrong in the past, I was also sad to find out that the man I trusted the most in the world had betrayed me secretly trying to reduce my career to basically nothing, I was disappointed as well that he didn't even speak to me first, and most of all I was angry that he somehow came to the conclusion he had the right to prevent me from doing the job I loved so much.
It was too much for me to handle, I just couldn't deal with all these emotions in the same time. It was becoming hard for me to breathe,my blood was boiling, I definitely needed fresh air. That or murder someone but it is against the law so let's say the breath of fresh air will do.
Before I could burst out crying and embarass myself in front of the captain along with it, I ran away, walking as fast as my legs allowed me to, heading outside.
"Julia ! Please baby wait !", Tom called, running after me. I ignored him and continued moving forward. I wasn't in the mood to listen to whatever bullshit he was planning to say anyway. Unfortunately, he was faster than me and somehow managed to grab my arm, preventing me from going any further. For some reason, the contact made my anger grow impossibly stronger and I completely lost it.
"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME !", I yelled hysterically, violently pushing him away from me.
"Lia please ! I'm sorry ! I know you're mad but just let me explain !", he said with those stupid puppy dog eyes he always makes, stepping closer to me. Apparently he was too dumb to understand that I didn't want his ass anywhere near me at the moment. Geez, something I hate more than anything when I'm angry is when people insist. It's totally useless because it'll only make me angrier. I rolled my eyes in utter annoyance before speaking
"EXPLAIN WHAT ? THAT YOU TRIED TO TURN ME INTO A FUCKING SECRETARY WITHOUT EVEN THINKING THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULD INFORM ME ABOUT IT FIRST ?", I spat, glaring at him.
"Fuck, lower your voice everybody's looking at us"
"I DON"T GIVE A FUCK", I yelled even louder before turning around to start walking again. But once again, Tom grabbed my arm to stop me. Extremely pissed, I turned back around and slapped him hard right across the face.
"FUCK OFF !", I shouted while trying to free myself from his grip. I finally gave in and let my tears come out. "WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ? YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DECIDE FOR ME WHAT I CAN OR CAN'T DO WITH MY LIFE ! I'M NOT AN OBJECT ! FUCK IT I DON'T BELONG TO YOU HANSON !"
My sudden and perhaps a little excessive outburst must have gotten on his nerves at some point because his expression hardened. Judging by the death glare he was now giving me, I could tell he was mad too, there was no doubting it.
"WANNA KNOW WHY I DID THIS ?", he took a few steps towards me, now raising his voice as well. I looked away. As I didn't respond, he kept going
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"BECAUSE AFTER WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, I WAS TERRIFIED AT ONLY THE IDEA OF YOU GOING BACK UNDERCOVER AND RISKING YOUR LIFE AGAIN ! I WAS TERRIFIED WE'LL END UP FINDING OURSELVES IN THE SAME FUCKING SITUATION SOONER OR LATER ! I WAS THERE THAT DAY, I SAW YOU FALLING TO THE GROUND AFTER THE GUN FIRED ! I WAS ALSO THERE THE MOMENT YOU LOST CONSCIOUSNESS IN MY ARMS, ALMOST CHOKING ON YOUR OWN BLOOD ! THESE MEMORIES HAVE BEEN HAUNTING ME EVER SINCE, AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I CAN'T TAKE IT OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD !"
I didn't say a word. For some reason, I felt stupid. Avoiding Tom's intense gaze, my eyes slowly wandered all around us and that's when I realized everybody's attention was indeed upon us. I sighed, mentally cursing myself for being the one who started making an exhibition of our disagreements in the first place. What an embarrassing situation.
Tom then spoke again. Well, he was more yelling than speaking but anyway.
"NOW WANNA KNOW WHY I'M THAT SCARED IT HAPPENS AGAIN ?"
"Stop speaking that loud everyone's watching us", I told him but he ignored my comment, his voice still as loud as before as he answered his own question
"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU !"
At that point, I felt impossibly more stupid than I already did previously. I had no idea what to say or what to do, I only wanted to disappear. I kept my head low until he lifted my chin up, forcing me to look at him.
"I know I shouldn't have asked Fuller to keep you on desk duty but for a moment it appeared to me as the only way to protect you since I knew you'd never willingly give up on the undercover missions."
I nodded slightlly, somehow understanding. I was still upset though, because I didn't like it when people tried to control me and that's exactly what he did. Although his protectivity was kind of cute in a way, it was also oppressing and I couldn't decide whether I liked it or hated it.
I was snapped out of my thoughts as I felt Tom's lips softly pressing against mine. I didn't kiss back, gently pushing him away instead. Judging by his face as we pulled away, my actions most likely pissed him off.
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Since I wasn't yelling anymore he must have assumed I had sort of forgiven him and everything was okay now, but the fact I didn't want to kiss him made it obvious it was not.
"I-I need to- *cough cough* thi-", I had to stop in the middle of what I was intending to say because I suddenly felt the urge to throw up. Gagging, I immediately put my hand over my mouth.
"Are you alright ?", Tom asked, concerned.
I quickly nodded before running toward the bathroom. He followed me all the way there.
"What- what's wrong ?", he asked once more.
"Nothing", I lied, almost slamming the bathroom door in his face as I rushed to the toilet.
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I really feel bad for Tom 😢 What he did wasn't that big of a deal, he didn't deserve to be treated like a piece of shit😑.
