Things couldn't get any better for Julia Andrew, the newest addition to the Jump Street team. She enjoys going undercover in high schools and gets along very well with her new colleagues, especially Tom Hanson who quickly became her best friend.
But...
Making a decision had never been my strongest point. I always had trouble when it came to it, even for the silliest things you can imagine. Like choosing which pair of shoes to buy or which ice cream flavor to order for example. I'd always found my extreme undecidedness rather annoying, but it usually wasn't that big of a deal. I mean, whether you buy the black or the red shoes doesn't really make a big difference anyway. But this time was a big dealnot because the topic was important. We weren't talking about clothes or ice cream here, but about a baby and what would become of it. Keeping it or gettind rid of it.
I took my time to weigh the pros and cons, and also to try to figure out what I really wanted which I wasn't too sure anymore. I surely didn't want to have to deal with all the responsibilities that comes with parenthood , but on the other hand, I was now surprisingly almost reluctant at the abortion idea. I was afraid I'd regret it in the end. If I went for the abortion, there was no getting back. Well, neither was there if I ended up keeping the baby.
So many things were to consider. My desires, my fears, my career, my entire life and happiness. However, there was not just my happiness to consider. Tom's mattered just as much as mine, if not even more. Till now, I thought he had no say in the whole thing since it was my body and I could dispose of it as I pleased, but it turned out not to be that easy in fact. The last thing I wanted was to hurt Tom in any way. I only wished the best for him, he deserved it so much.
A few days later
I was lying on the couch in my pajamas, watching some stupid romance movie playing on ths TV, a bowl full of chocolate chip cookies resting on my lap. Cookies had always been my favorite medicine when my heart was heavy, and tonight it sadly was.
I was starting to fall asleep when the doorbell went off. I groaned, lazily sitting up. Who the fuck could it be ?I was both pissed and surprised to have a visitor that late, espacially when it was almost midnight. And as if I wasn't pissed enough already, that person wouldn't stop ringing at the damn door. Apparently not everyone knows the meaning of the word 'patience'.
"Yeah I'm coming !", I shouted from where I was, very reluctantly making my way to answer. I instantly regretted to have been that rude when I found myself standing in front of Tom.
My heart began racing when I became fully aware of his presence, but I didn't say anythi'g. I actually had something to announce him, and having him there was stressing me out.
"I'm sorry to show up that late but uh...", he said, scratching the back of his neck nervously.
"It's fine. Come in", I offered with a small smile on my lips, stepping back so he could enter which he immediately did.
"So...what's up ?", I curiously asked after shutting the door. There most certainly was a reason for him to come over at this hour.
"Well...before you left the other day, you said you needed to think...", he reminded me in a soft tone, looking me right in the eyes as he spoke. "So...did you think ?"
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