Undercover Love

Chapter 46

Julia's POV

"Some other time. I gotta go."

"Baby wait I"m"

"beep, beep, beep"

Wait. Did he just..?

He hung up. Tom just fucking hung up on me. 

"Fucking bastard !", I yelled at the top of my lungs, throwing the phone away in anger. What the fuck was wrong with him ? Why was he treating me like a piece of shit ? I didn't even do anything !  He said he had to go. Where ? What for ? Screwing his new slut maybe ? Was he even alone when I phoned him ? Is that why it took him so long to pick up ? Because they were fucking ?

"Fine ! Go screw your bitch ! I don't give a shit !", I said out loud, bursting into tears not long after. I burried my face in my hands and slowly sank to the floor. I just lied there, drowning in my sorrrow and hoping the ground would open and swallow me to end my suffering. My heart was broken. My world had literally just fallen apart. The guy I was so genuinely and madly in love with clearly didn't wanna have anything to do with me anymore and the worst part is I had no idea why. He changed so suddenly. 

Memories from when we were still nothing more than friends came flooding back in my mind. Memories from the day we met till that damn day we ended up fucking at his place. That day we basically fucked our friendship up. I wanted to go back in time to prevent it from happening because it was definitely the biggest mistake we both ever made and sadly there was no getting back.

My crying intensified, making it terribly hard for me to breathe, but I couldn't stop. I didn't care if I ended up choking to death on my tears anyway. I squeezed my eyes shut, the tears somehow still running down my face. I put my hand on my stomach and rubbed it softly. A part of Tom was in there and he didn't even know it. A part of the man I loved was nice and warm inside of me. The ghost of a smile spread on my lips as the crying decresed. This baby was the expression of our love and passion. It came from an act of love between us. Surprisingly, a part of me almost felt attached to it. Well, until I remembered Tom probably only used me as a fuck toy all this time that is. I really thought he loved me, I really thought he was the one but it seemed like I was wrong. 

I got up and grabbed my purse before running out of my apartment. I hopped in my car and drove off without even knowing where I was going. I just drove until I found myself parked in front of a familiar building. Tom's apartment building. I couldn't give up on him just like that. I wanted to fight because in my opinion what we had was worth fighting for. I stayed in my car, my hands resting on the steering wheel as I debated on whether I should go and knock on his door until he opens it, or just leave. I wanted to see him so badly but I didn't have enough strength left in me to take another rejection so I decided to get back on the road instead. I drove around town in circles without a heading for hours. Coming to the evident conclusion I really needed to talk to someone, I ended up on Doug's doorstep.

"Lia ?", he said as he opened the door, half asleep and surprised to see me.

"I'm sorry to show up in the middle of the night but...can I come in ?", I shyly asked.

"Uh sure", he said, opening the door wider for me to come in. 

"What's up ?", Doug curiously questioned as we both sat on the couch.

"Well, where do I start ?", I nervously chuckled, scratching the back of my neck. For some reason, I felt embarassed. He remained silent, just waiting for me to speak. "Well...", I lowered my head, looking at my hands as I began playing with my fingers, "I...called Tom. I wanted to tell him I'm...you know. I thought it'd be easier than face to face but..." I paused, not sure I was making any sense.