Nothing's Fine, I'm Torn.

Your words

For a moment I thought I flew, I felt like a bird high in the sky. The wind waved slowly over my body, making the hairs on my arms stood up. The clouds, the birds, the sun, everything suddenly seemed so close. I still felt the hand of Kristen in mine, she squeezed my fingers softly together and I heard her laughter in the distance. For a moment I thought of death, the fear I felt somewhere in my stomach. If I should die, I would do it with Kristen. These thoughts made me shiver but also gave me a smile on my face and made me feel a little relieved inside. My laughter got interrupted by the cold water which came with a big bang in my face. Even when we were underwater Kristen still didn't release my hand. I didn't know what it was but it felt good to be with her. Every second, every minute that I had spent with her was like a dream that came true. It looked like we knew each other for years, as if we always had been together, as if we were one. "Jeez, that's so cold!" Kristen came panting up and spat out some water from her mouth. "That was so cool!" I looked at the cliff that stuck far above us. The sun made the yellow flowers on the edge of the cliff glisten, so that the view was dazzling. Even from below, the view was so beautiful which made a smile appear on my face. "It was not so scary huh, mister!" Kristen let go of my hand, swam closer to me and clamped her legs around my waist so I felt  her body against mine. By the bang of the water her blonde hair now hung straight down her face. As we stared into each others eyes I gently rubbed the hair behind her ears. "That's because of you." She looked so pretty, even when her hair was tousled, when the droplets hung on her nose and she had some of her mascara under her eyes. She clung a little closer to me so I felt her belly against mine. "What do you mean with that it's because of me, Harry?" I looked at her lips which slowly rippled up and down as she talked. She put her forehead against mine, waiting for the answer I would give. I felt her hands slowly back and forth through my curls, which probably didn't even look like curls any longer. "Well, without you I had never dared to jump.." The words came whispering out of my mouth and she closed her eyes while resting her head still on mine. Slowly we came closer together and just before I could kiss her she put her finger on my lips. "Come and get it, Styles!" She smirked and swam away quickly toward the nearest side. I shook my head while swimming and I went like a rocket behind her. That girl made me crazy, she made my head spin, she made me laugh, she made my belly turn upside down, she just made me so happy..

I climbed on the side and saw that Kristen already lie in the grass between the large flowers. We were probably on the other side of the lake, because on the other side we saw the white and red rug with the basket. The night was falling slowly, it started to get a little darker and the wind began to blow a little harder. I looked at Kristen who was laying on her belly in the grass, as she picked some flowers. Slowly I plopped next to her and I hit my arm around her waist. "I think we should go back. They are probably very worried.." I rubbed the wet hair from her neck and gave her a soft kiss. She did not respond, picked some flowers and pulled the leaves off again. It was like that game you ever saw in a cartoon. With he do love me, he do not love me, and so on. "I begin to get cold pretty well now.." I turned around so I was lying on my back. The sky began to fill with stars and the moon appeared in the sky right above us. Kristen slowly turned onto her side and lay with her head on my chest so I felt her wet hair on me. "I don't want to leave. I want to stay with you.." She closed her eyes and shook her head back and forth for a place to search that she was laying nice. "I just want to stay with you, Harry.."

  After a few hours I was awake again. Softly I heard Kristen still snoring and she now lay with her head hidden in the grass. I was shocked at the time on my watch, lifted her gently and began to find a way back to the others. After a while searching I finally saw the red mini cooper of Laura, the rug and basket were already gone and there was nobody around. By Kristen in my arms, I walked carefully to the car, the stones of the path stung my bare feet and the wind gave me goose bumps on my back. I heard smacking sounds and before I knew I saw Laura and Liam, kissing. "I'm sorry guys!" Laura and Liam startled, stopped immediately and I didn't know how fast I had to turn. "Finally you're here!" Liam grinned and frowned from head to toe to my half naked body and that of Kristen. "What have you guys done?" Laura began to laugh verly loud and hung on Liam's arm like she was about to fall. "Where are your clothes?" Kristen made moaning sounds as she could wake up at any moment. "I'll explain that later. Can we go now? I'm freezing.." Slowly I opened the door and put Kristen on my lap. Kristen's words rang in my head so I felt a tickle in my stomach. I had never thought, I never expected this. But for the first time I couldn't wait to go back to school..