Nothing's Fine, I'm Torn.

Fried chicken

"And that was the moment I came across you.." I took a big gulp of breath after I had told Laura the whole story. The whole way she listened attentively, the only thing she did was being silent and nod. It felt good to have someone who listens to me, someone who understands me clearly. I looked admiringly at the house right in front of me. Since there is a large window in the kitchen, I saw Paul was already busy cooking and Niall who helped him stirring in the pan. I sighed. We stood on the stairs in front of our house, the raindrops slid slowly down my back. "Harry?" Once I heard my name I turned to Laura who grabbed me by my wrist and looked deeply into my eyes. "It's not your fault. It's just.. her father.." Before Laura could finish her sentence, the door was opened by Louis who bumped into me for a big bear hug. "For god sake, Harry. You're finally here! Are you okay?" Louis bend a little backwards so we looked into each other eyes. To be honest, I really thought his eyes were always beautiful, only with a little bit of light he had small twinkles in his eyes. I didn't even answer whether he pressed himself already close to me for another hug. There was some rumbling sound inside the hallway and I saw Zayn running towards me with a big yellow towel. "Oh Harry, I was so worried.. Are you okay?" He hit the towel around me, let Laura and me in and closed the door behind him. Louis finally let go off me, ran to the kitchen and livingroom, since they were in the same room and began to scream hard. "Boys, Harry is back! He's back!" I walked slowly into the kitchen and was attacked by a big group hug. "Harry, are you okay?" I felt a hand slide through my wet curls. "Harry!" Everyone started screaming together so I understood nothing from what they said. "Guys, stop, I can't breathe!" Gently, I let out a giggle, the first smile today. It felt good to have four brothers that cared so much about me. The boys let go off me slowly and now began to laugh. "You're on time for dinner!" I recognized Niall's voice and gave him a pat on his fluffy blonde hair. Niall was always someone who could cheer me up with his laugh or comment. He always let me forget about my worries. I saw that Laura was holding the hand of Liam and looked at me with a smile. I moved with my lips up and down a thank you without saying anything and she stuck her thumb up as she winked. Then I threw my towel on the ground and paved a way up to get a nice hot shower before we went to dinner.

After the hot shower I felt already a little better. Okay, obviously I still missed Kristen and I felt still bad about that letter and last night but somehow I felt that it would be okay. The only thing I had to do was think of a plan. I slowly opened the kitchen door so there flew a smell of fried chicken into my face. By the smell I felt the water in my mouth and my stomach rumbled up and down, after that whole day without eating I'm clearly hungry. I found everyone already at the table with knives and forks in their hands waiting for me until I took place. I smiled shyly and walked to the big blue chair at the head and once I sat everyone already started to eat. "Enjoy your meal!" Flew a few times back and forth across the table and I felt a little piece warm chicken slide through my throat. Niall came running up to me with a jug of water with ice cubes, picked up my glass and cautious poured a little. "Please don't be so sad.." He looked me straight in the eyes with his piercing blue eyes. His eyes were a little red, he had a sad expression on his face which thus made it clear that he had been crying and felt really bad about everything. "There must be a reason.." Louis talked with his mouth full, and looked at the ceiling like a response would fall from the sky. "Reason for what?" Liam looked questioningly at Louis who took a bite and still looked at the ceiling. "For the letter, sucker!" Zayn began also to interfere while he took a few bites of his chicken. He ate so fast that he just looked like an animal in the zoo who finally got his food during feeding time. A jaguar or something. "It'll be fine, curly." Paul who sat obliquely to the right of me shoved the letter with the red bow to me and smiled sweetly as he gave a pat on my head. "Thanks, daddy Paul!" Lately I called Paul daddy because he was always so sweet, concerned and honest. He cared for me, he was always there when I needed someone, like a real father.

"Well actually, her father is the reason .." I heard Laura's voice followed by a tinkling sound of a fork that fell on the marble floor. "What?" Niall put his glass with a loud bang and looked with open mouth, just like the other boys. "You mean he forc..?" Louis shortage of nervousness through his hair and Laura nodded already. "She loves you Harry, really." Laura took another sip of her water and smiled at me from the other side of the table. "But.. how? How do you know?" Liam who now looked around confused finally began to wake up. "Because I know her? I can see it, feel it in everything she does. The way she looks at him, her comments, just everything!" Laura raised her voice while talking what made her look like she was angry, irritated and arrogant. But once she saw the startled glances, she offered her apologies. It was quiet for a moment at the table, all you could hear was the clink of cutlery and the smacking of Zayn. She do love me? Did this really just happen? But why did she write that letter? I looked at the red bow that stuck under my plate. The letter, the rolled letter. I felt everyone staring at me but had not the strength to look back. "That's true, she loves you Harry!" Zayn who sat on the left of me was putting his hand on my knee under the table. Niall suddenly jumped up and clapped his hand on the table and he stuck his finger in the air. "Guys, guys! And girl then.. I have a great idea!"

Authors note:

Hi guys, hope you enjoy it for so far! There is more coming up soon. I'm going on a holiday trip so I won't be able to upload a new chapter. So you have to wait for the new one for like a week, but I promise I'll try while i'm away to write a long one! Hope you'll like it and comments and votes are always appreciated! :)

Love, Naomi