Nothing's Fine, I'm Torn.

Epilogue

Now that I read this story again, which I wrote one year ago, I still get some tears in my eyes. It’s been twelve years since that awful day. Since that afwul day she left me. I know that sounds long, but there isn't a day I don't think about her. Fortunately I wrote everything down. Laura told me that it would help. She told me that writing your feelings away helps you healing and clears up your mind. And actually it really helps. Laura is still a very good friend of mine, well actually I can call her even my bestfriend. She helped me all the time, she was always there when I needed her, and she still is. She actually married Liam three years ago and already got one little toddler walking around and messing up her life..

Time heals everything they say. It's true in one way. I learned to be happy again, I learned to live my life again and ofcourse I learned to love again. I fell in love with an amazing girl called Naomi. I won't deny that Kristen is the love of my life, but Naomi has my heart as well. She's fantastic and she really helped me in these horrible days. It feels good to say that i'm actually happy again. Ofcourse it took a couple of years but I guess it was all worth it. However all that happened with Kristen left a big scar on my heart. I won't say that I still feel pain of that every single day, but time doesn't heal everything ofcourse. It healt the scar by letting Naomi in my life, by loving again but there's still something left of it..

As the days pass I look at my children running around and playing with eachother, I look at the leaves which drop day by day and I look at my four amazing friends who are still with me. I have everything  to be happy, and yes I really am. But there's not a day that passes without thinking about my lovely Kristen, without thinking about my beautiful girl. What we had was unique, it was perfect. So if something special as her comes on your path then never let it go. Cherish every moment, tell her everyday you love her. Because one day it will be all too late..

Fortunately I can now finish this chapter, i'm turning the page to a new one. Because I know, whenever I want to be with Kristen again, I just need to open the book..