Nothing's Fine, I'm Torn.

Soft lips

Once the final bell rang, I jumped right on. I didn't know how but this day seemed suddenly to have gone over quickly. After the break I had only thought about the picnic and of course of Kristen. I was so excited and so very pleased. Together with the guys we went to the big tree in the schoolyard where we had planned to meet each other. Kristen and Laura were already there and waved friendly as a sign that we had to come. It was a sunny summer day, everywhere flew small insects to colorful flowers. It seemed that this day couldn't go wrong, as if everything was meant to be. "Shall we go boys?" Laura grabbed  Liam's hand and led us to her small red mini cooper. "How will we ever fit in?" Just before I could say it, Louis drew all his mouth open. Typically Louis, he was always the one who said everything he thought about. Even though it was friendly or very common, he had to have an answer for everything. Meanwhile, Laura shrugged as a sign that she didn't know it too. Before I knew it Louis, Zayn and Niall were already in the backseat. Liam stood at the door and held it open because he was of course the one who sat next to Laura. "I think I need to sit on your lap then?" Kristen laughed naughty and pushed me slowly into the car. Slowly I felt her body on mine and Laura began to start the car, heading for the woods.

We were all together on a red and white picnic rug and enjoy the beautiful weather. Laura's parents were the one who own the forest and had arranged everything. In the middle of the rug stood a large basket with sandwiches, cookies, candy, drinks and much more. For a moment we didn't have to think about school and all our obligations, just rest and having fun. I looked at Liam and Laura who were together at the lake, fighting to throw each other in the cold water. It felt so good to see Liam like that, he seemed so happy. There was a loud scream and before I knew they were both in the water. "Swimming time!" Niall began to pull out his shoes, pants and his shirt and jumped with a big dip in the water causing a big splash. Two seconds later there was another splash of Zayn who also had undressed. "Hmm refreshing!" Zayn threw with his hand a little bit of water in his face as if he washed it. "Come boys!" Liam who had Laura on his neck made a gesture that we had to come. I shook my head and turned around to look for Kristen. To my surprise she was gone, just like Louis. I looked around but could not find Kristen, only Louis who was calling Megan probably because he couldn't stop laughing. I put my stuff down and walked in the woods looking for Kristen. The other boys had apparently not noticed it because the farther I walked away the softer I heard their laughter.      

"Kristen?" I screamed but I caught my own voice by the echo. Why the hell did she leave without saying anything? Slowly I walked further into the forest, I felt like there was someone else. Like someone was watching me. It reminded me of my dream about Kristen in the gymnasium. "Kristen?" My voice sounded deeper and softer than the first time. I ran across a narrow bridge that led to a large open area with flowers in all colors of the rainbow. The view was dazzling, it was perfect. The sun shone in the clearing and made a kind of beam to Kristen who sat at the edge of the cliff. "Kristen what are you doing here?" Slowly I let myself fall down beside her and looked expectantly toward the side of her face. From the cliff you saw a big blue lake, birds and a few houses far away. "Would you dare?" Kristen saw me looking down and stared at me while I swallowed the lump in my throat away. "What do you mean?" I pretended I didn't know what she mean, hoping it was not what I thought about. "You know what I mean, Harry!" She smiled mischievous, crept a little closer to me and pointed down to the big blue lake. "You don't mean that  we're going to j .." Before I could finish my sentence she already nod full of conviction. Slowly she stood up and began to undress, the only things she was wearing was her bra and her panties. "Come on? We'll go together!" She pulled me slowly up and pressed herself against me. I felt the pressure of her body on mine, so close to me, so familiar. I didn't know why but I slowly started to take my clothes off. Once I was done we looked for a moment in each other's eyes, nose to nose, our lips inches away. "What do I get if I do it?" I felt her lashes against mine and pushed her a little closer to me. This was like a moment in a movie, something that I thought that would never happen. "This.." She leaned a little further forward and I felt her soft lips against mine. Once our lips were seperated she took my hand. "I count!" Still, I was sunk away into my mind from that one kiss, from her soft lips against mine. Far away I heard her beautiful voice count off and before I knew it we flew down together from the high cliff into the cold water.