Mixed Emotions

Chapter 34

As I sped off that mid-day I was determined to make Willy hear me out no matter what.

On getting to his house, I knocked and waited. The door opened and I saw him standing there, I smiled.

"Hi, Adrianna  what a surprise. Please come in".

"Thank you". I said and walked in.

" How are you? Is everything okay with the kids? Is there a problem?".

"The kids are fine".

"Okay so why are you here?"

Ouch that hurt but there's no room for pride.

"I came to talk about us".

"Us? What's wrong with us, I don't understand" he said giving me a shocked face.

" Willy I don't want to play this game anymore, it's killing me slowly. The truth is I love you I have been afraid to admit it but that's the honest truth".

"Adri..." he started to say when I cut him short.

"No Willy don't say anything, I know you have a girlfriend and all but it hurts me deeply. What about us? What about what you feel for me?  You suddenly became so distant and so uncaring. I want you, I want us together with the kids a happy family".

"Adrianna"

"Shut up and stop calling me Adrianna! What happened to you calling me Adrie? What happened to princess? You're being so cold and it hurts yes it hurts because I'm in love with you,  I love you Willy can't you see that?". I shouted as tears made their way down my face.

"What do you want me to say? I tried everything to get you to forgive me so we could be one big happy family but what did you do? You kept rejecting me every time. If I stopped loving you, it was all your fault".

"Finally you said it, you stopped loving me.  That's okay Willy I only came here to let you know how I feel and if it changes nothing  at least I know I tried. Goodluck being with Miranda she's whole I guess". I wiped off my tears, picked up my bag and turned to go.

I reached the door about to open it but I dropped my bag and ran back to where he was standing, I stood on tiptoes, pulled his head down and pressed my lips against his gently. I kissed him and he didn't even respond.

I walked out of the door and somewhere in my heart I prayed he would stop me, grab me, kiss me amd tell me he never stopped loving me but that never happened.

I guess I have read too many romance stories. This is real life, things don't happen that way.

But I know I left that place lighter than when I came, I confessed my feelings and I felt free.

I drove home in tears but they weren't just tears I shed, this was almost the sane type of tears i shed when i was violated that night. Who would have thought that I'll fall in love with the person who ripped away My innocence. As I cried, I smiled through those tears. Weird but true.

I was happy that I finally told him how I felt and I was sad that he rejected me. I loved him and I hated him at the same time.
How can someone feel two contrasting emotions so strongly at the same time?

The perfect description for it is Mixed Emotions.

Willy Pov

I was in my room looking at a picture that I took of Adrie and the kids. I smiled at how beautiful and happy they looked. They are the best gift I could ever ask for. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a knock on the door, my housekeeper was away for a week so I went answer the door.

I opened the door and came face to face with Adrie. She smile at me and it made my heart jump.
I asked about the kids and she said nothing was wrong with that they were fine.

She said she came to talk about us.

I hated the fact that I call her Adrianna to here hearing but it was my mask to cover up how hurt I was each time she rejected me.
I made a mistake a huge one but it brought out something beautiful even though it doesn't change the fact that it was heartless of me to violate her.

When she told me she loved me back, all I wanted to do was to hug her and hold her tight and when those tears started falling I really wanted to kiss them away.

When she mentioned Miranda it made me think, Miranda and I weren't really a couple, we were just partners helping the other one out, it was strictly sex and painting a picture for the media and giving them something to write about. No love no feelings attached.

I never stopped loving Adrie not even for a half a second.

She picked up her bag and as she turned to go, i really wanted to hold her back and kiss her and tell her I'm crazy about her but I stood like statue and watched her reach the door.

On reaching the door she made for the handle but instead of going out she dropped her bag and ran back to me. As she planted those soft lips on mine I became frozen - a frozen statue. I was shocked and rooted to the spot I tried raising my hands to hold her but my hands didn't move, I tried kissing back but my lips didn't budge either until she stepped away from me and I saw the hurt of rejection in her eyes, she turned and walked away.

Only when she slammed the door behind her was I able to move my hands.
Damn silly hands. I went back up to my room punched the wall and the bed several times. I changed my clothes, picked up my car key and went to end a relationship or should I call it "situationship" that I should never have started in the first place.

In 15 minutes, I reached my destination.i knocked and waited.
"Good afternoon sir, please come in".
"Afternoon Mabel and thank you"i said to the maid.
I sat down and waited.

"Oh my Willy, what a surprise you didn't even tell me you were coming".

"I'm sorry Miranda I just really wanted to talk to you".

"Its okay, so what's up?".

"Miranda we can't continue what we have, I'm really sorry but i love Adrianna and I'm ready to be with her".

What did you just say? He'll no I'm never agreeing to that. You want to dump me for that thing in please you've got to be kidding me".

Oh no please no.

"Miranda, come on we talked about this before, no feelings attached.  Why are you upset all of a sudden".

"Willy I was messing with you just testing my acting skills that's what the jealous girl would say right?"

"You gave me quite a scare there".
" Its fine Willy besides I fell in love with someone else"

"Really who?"

"I know it sounds crazy but I fell in love with Dexter, your friend".

"Oh no, does he know?"

"Its a long story Willy, a story for another day but we knew each other long long ago so you think he'll still accept me, you know as you and I have some it severally?"

" I don't know Miranda we'll have to find out".
"Come on go get your girl before something happens again".

"Miranda thank you so much but are you sure you're cool with this? Like for real you won't hurt Adrianna or my kids?"

"Willy! This isn't a novel, this is real life and even if I wanted to be a character in a novel, I don't think i would love to play jealous ex at all. I would want my own story with a great title maybe a story of Dexter and I"

I stared at her smiling but confused.

"Don't look at me like I'm crazy,  and don't worry about Adrianna and the kids they will be just fine now off you go, bye bye".

"Thanks again Miranda" I said pulling her into a hug.

Adrianna finally tells Willy how she feels- was she right in doing that?
Willy ends his 'situationship' with Miranda and Miranda tell him she's in love with Dexter(should I write a book on them?let me know what you think).
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