he smeared
purple rain
across her forehead
as i watch her giggle
from behind
the veil
i wore when
we were supposed
to get
married
they both drank
love potions
with stars closed
and opened
their orbs
to their shadows
hiding from
each other.
was it my fault
that their
shadows
didn't align?
have i cursed them
to such luck?
would i
take it back
if i was
able to?
PART II
perhaps i wouldn't
feel
so uninvited
if you'd just let me
hold your hand
perhaps i wouldn't
feel
so unloved
if your pride was just
wasn't enough
perhaps i'd be kissing you
right now
if you never said
goodbye
perhaps i'd say
i love you
if you'd only say it back.
i'm afraid that
if i let myself go too far
i won't be able
to come back
but is there even anything
worth coming back for?
you
i always mutter,
but the raspiness in your voice
affects me
more than you think
and i despise it
i despise knowing
that you would never seep in
through my bones
because my skin would
overheat before you'd even come
any closer
that i know you would never
dare to come near
the infamous one,
herself
because she'd boil you to bits
and create wildfires
to comfort her
desperate needs
of being loved.
that's what they all said
but rumors spread
like viruses in computers
and brains
and websites
nor should they
even believe
what the others say
about her,
how undeniably
selfish of her
for just wanting
one
true
love.
PART III
boogie man
is comin'
to town
you all receive
coal for
halloween
i don't feel
as though my heart
was not
only stabbed
but drenched
from coca cola blood
bold words
linger
in my skull
better than
italics
could ever be
i've been
loving you
even if i didn't
realize i was.
if only my
"black haired boy"
repellent
would've stayed
a little longer
i would've
never gotten
that strained name
coming from
your
lips that i want to
oh so dearly
kiss.
PART IV
pouts uncover
the fathomless
thoughts of men's
most desired
entity.
count me in
if the truth hurts
more than the lies
that comes with it.
elevator noises
covers my naked
ears from
his voice;
mixed with
greek gods and
moonbeams
from above angels' halo
skins
to mother nature's
resemblance
to the girl
i loved
only for a week.
her love came
from the storm within
and thus
thunders would
relinquish
her most
beloved planet,
jupiter.
goodbye
as though
we'll see each
other again
soon
but as a new sun
arrives,
farewell
for now.
THE END
thank u guys sm for reading this book!! this was my first poetry book uh ever?? nd i was rlly nervous abt it at the beginning bc i was v skeptical abt all the things i wrote since i've never shared it to anyone before. but all ur love, compliments, nd support towards my writing gave me confidence to keep going nd reassured me that not just my own poems, but everyone's poems can affect someone's life nd perspective nd that's the main reason why i posted these poems, bc i never thought i would ever affect someone else's life just by creating poetry with ur own beautiful words that comes from within you. so thank u guys so much for staying w me on this long fuckin journey on writing poetry nd i love u all goodbye!! <33
