Dark Moves Of Love ~ Neymar Jr

Chapter 12

I snapped my computer close. He had a girlfriend. He had a kid. I didn't want to know the details. I couldn't bare it. I tried to organize my thoughts, because nothing in my head made much sense. When he was Juninho, for brief moments the idea that him and me could turn into something more than friends had crossed my mind. Granted it wasn't something that I had thought about much, since his behavior then was weird  towards me because of the identity secret he was keeping. But after I found out who he really was, he was so keen on making me forgive him. And now I found out that he had a girlfriend, a kid, his own family. Why would a guy like that be so keen on making me, someone he had just met, forgive him?

"I must be one hell of a friend." I said out loud to myself. "And now I am talking to myself. Fucking great."

I took a deep breath wondering how I could make it through practice today. I had to do better than yesterday, but on the bright side, yesterday I had hit rock bottom, so there was nowhere but up.

Looking at the clock I realized that I had to rush to the football fields or I'd be late. With a sigh I put Neymar and his family on the back of my mind, fully aware that I'd see him again in a few minutes and hoping it wouldn't all come back to torment me.

I found Alex on the corridor and we walked together towards the fields.

"How are you?" he asked me,eyeing me carefully. I remembered he was with me when I had found out the truth about Neymar and I wondered what he thought about it. Surely I must have made a bizarre spectacle.

"Yeah, I'm good." I told him, giving him a fake reassuring smile.

"I was talking to the others and we kinda said we could take the bus to Rio after practice." He said.

I didn't have to think about it too hard. I really wanted to go to Rio and a day away from the compound would be good for me.

"Yeah, I'm in." I said.

"That's great." He said. "But the thing is... you know what happened with Peter and Marina?"

I nodded.

"Well, I don't think they'd go together."

"That is a problem." I said. We couldn't invite just one of them and let the other stay here. "So?"

"Maybe you'd want to go with me? Just us?" he said reluctantly.

"Umm..." I started. Why was I so clueless? Did he want to go with just me so that we won't pick either one of our friends or did he want to go with me period? And if it was the second, why the prologue? And most importantly, what the hell did I want?

"Bom dia!" I heard. Saved by the bell one more time. It was Oscar.

"Bom dia!" Alex and I said.

We all continued walking together. Alex and Oscar started talking but I tuned out their conversation. I had to give Alex an answer.

We finally arrived at the first field where everyone was gathering for practice to start.

"Hey Alex?"

He looked up at me.

"About tonight? Let's do it." I said.

He nodded, a smile appearing on his face.

"What are we doing tonight?" Peter asked, as he walked towards us.

"Just us. And we are going to Rio." Alex told him.

"Oh." Peter teased him, winking. I turned my gaze away, acting like I didn't notice. But what I saw was far worse. Neymar was standing behind me the whole time.