The Big Four: Goes to School

Who I am (Merida's last Diary)

Hi everyone, sadly this will be the last diary, and this diary was only about Merida and what happened in her life.

I am writing in my diary again, and there are lots of changes in me, so many things. First of all, I’m glad I attended the Halloween party, second, I’m glad Astrid finally said sorry, but it was only because she thought Jack was my boyfriend. I just wish she would still regret for her bullying me if in case she found out that it was all fake. Anyway, something literally changed in me, it was a very big change for me. This is yet the best school year of my life.

First of all, well…I started speaking in English accent, but surely I’ll still use Scottish, the next is that no one actually bullies me, when my team were top of the Big Four in school, even though Jack was show off, well, it was still us. They said they admire us of our talents and skills. They said that we have the whole package, first of all, you need to be cool to win, that is Jack for sure, next you have to be talented, that is Rapunzel, then the smart ones, me and Hiccup, even though we have our weaknesses in first, we manage to get over it, now were all cool, talented, smart, good-looking for the three not me by the way.

I’m still not beautiful, but it doesn’t really matter to me, the good thing is that I have my friends. The next is that I am so confident, so much confident than the past few years, it’s like my childhood is getting back to me, I used to be that shy girl, and doesn’t really care to all, but it was so fast, I can’t believe I’ve changed, just because of this Big Four activity. When I heard my team, I was like this could be my worst nightmare, except for Rapunzel, but I thought our team would be the least likes in school, but I was wrong, our team was totally on top, we didn’t get along in first, but as long as we bond, we understand each other.

I am so thankful that this activity was made, especially for me, if my team wasn’t them, I’m not gonna change like this. I mean, my friends are totally different than me, especially the attitude and personalities. I am not happy and joyous like Rapunzel, I’m not overconfident and cool like Jack, and I am not as of Hiccup who still have friends even though he’s a total nerd, but now, I think we are all just the same. 

Now, this would be my last diary about myself.  Right now I will tell some things about my friends. First, for my best friend. When I first met her, I thought she would be with cool and pretty girls, but I was also confused of why she wanted to be my friend, that’s when I realized she really wanted to have a friend, she is that pretty girl, but clumsy and shy one. She was also hiding this talent she has for a long time, is that she knew how to sing, she just hasn’t build up her confidence yet, until the Big Four was made. She is an inspiration to me, she helps me in everything, she really wants me and her to be together always, she even wanted to sleep in my house as always. Well, I guess that is what best friends are for. Rapunzel is the best girl and the prettiest one I’ve seen.  I wish her best luck, even though were going to be far away to each other she promised me that I would be her BFF, that really made me cry. Now, she has a boyfriend, and she’s happy.

For Hiccup. He is like my brother, he is the smartest guy I’ve seen in my life. And when we’re together were like Spies and Agents, we always talk about science, technologies, and sci-fi. He was that kind of guy that was so shy, insecure and nervous. But he still have many friends, they’re just smart friends. He’s been in love with Astrid for a long time, in first he wasn’t always recognized by Astrid, but right now, when he joined our group, which  is one of the top, they can talk and Astrid always compliments on him, and it made him blush so much. He never had a cool friend, but until Jack came, they were like bros. They were always talking about things, even girls. I am glad for Hiccup. He is handsome when he wants to be handsome, it’s just that he didn’t noticed it yet, until the day he’ll change. He just needs to look at himself once more, and take a look.

Last, Jack. He was my second enemy when I met him, he was like the one that will ruin my life forever. There are lots of different things between me and Jack, we don’t get along pretty well. But, when the Big Four was made, we started to help each other, and we were like a real team, he teaches us in all things. The one thing he doesn’t really want is losing, but that was in first. Now, it doesn’t matter to him, the important thing for him now is that we experienced what is like to be different, and we enjoyed so much. He is really great at giving advices to us, he even likes to share things that had happened to him, I didn’t realize he was a nice guy too. He even spends more time with us than of his teammates in football. I know that this team is very important to him.

Well, about my feelings for him, well…technically I still like him, I mean he always jokes on me, and truthfully I am not mad if he makes jokes on me, I am happy because he recognizes me. When we fake like boyfriend and girlfriend, my heart was just beating so fast, I want to take that moment for myself, I don’t really care if he doesn’t like me. And by the way, he is the first guy I have crush on, I was expecting a scientist or a genius. He is on my list in my diary, so I won’t really let him read this, I have a key, lock, keypad, and voice recognizer here, just in case. Well, I can’t believe a geek like me would like a guy like him, he is not smart but he have skills, I feel like the only reason why his ex-girlfriends broke up with him it’s because he is not smart and he’s not caring that much. But now he changed, and he’s with Rapunzel.

The truth is I’m really hurt when I saw them both together, even though I helped Punzie for being with Jack. But there is nothing left to do for me, I can’t stop this because I don’t want to break their trusts on me. Well, I guess I don’t like him, I just like like like like him, there I said it. I completely tried to control my feelings for him, when he looks at me, instead of making me blush, I think about my future, and instead of my heart telling me to love him, my head is telling me to study first. It’s confusing, but I think I can do this, literally it breaks my heart so much, but I need to do this on my own.

I guess this is the end of my diary, it was pretty long, and there are lots of things I wrote in here. To all my fellow friends, you know that I’ve changed, and to tell you guys, I’ll never change the way I acted for the past few years, this is who I am.