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I'm was tired.

But I can't complain because if I do, I might get hurt.

Nah fuck that, Nonny'll probably shoot me or some shit and I don't feel like getting shot so I'm a just keep quiet. She'd been giving me a mean glare all day and I'm not tryna see what happens if she gets pissed off. It's not like I'm scared or anything, I'm just too tired to actually care enough to stop her if she does do anything. So I'll stay quiet.

Meech not fuckin with me right now either, but I don't care. If he wouldn't have punched me then we wouldn't have fought and got ourselves into this situation. I'm not about to just let anybody hit me and get away with it, I'm not a pussy. But in result of that, I can't even talk to my baby momma. I mean I can but she's not gonna talk back, she's mad at me.

I don't blame her. I know that I'm fucking up bad and I know that I deserve everything that's coming at me but how would you react if the people you care for started to give up on you?

"We're giving up on you because you're giving up on yourself" is what Angelo told me. Those exact words being the only thing that seems to be embedded into my brain, repeating itself everytime I take a look at Niya. I'm not giving up. I don't know what I'm doing, but it ain't that it. I can't just do that, I need La'Niya more than anything little does she know.

I'll fix this.

'Kenny.' My eyes slowly open at the faint sound of La'Niya's voice. It's late and I didn't even know that I fell asleep until I looked up at the clock on the wall, seeing that it was 3:17 a.m. I turned my gaze to her as I sat up up from my comfortable position on the couch. She was still seated in that recliner, eyes still surprisingly closed . I'd soon come to realize that she was asleep, but she said my name.

It was more of a cry really which worried me. What the fuck was she dreaming about? Why'd she say my name like that ? Why is there a tear running down her fa-

'La'Niya !' I shouted, a little too loud but I didn't care. I just needed her to wake up. She jumped up and gasped before her head shot in my direction, a look of panic spread onto her face.

'What , what happened?' She mumbled, looking around herself as if something was there.

'Is you okay?' I asked.

'Are you? Why you just yelling my name like that? '

'Because you said my name .. but, you was sleep .'

'I- ' She paused, eyebrows scrunched in confusion. She then sighed before standing up to her feet with a little wobble and making her way next to me on the couch. I watched as she sat beside me then leaning her head on my chest. Just this simple act alone was enough to make me go crazy on the inside; it's a feeling that I miss. 'I was having a bad dream.'

'About what?' I questioned, feeling a heavy lump in my throat as I did so.

'About losin you.'

I'm not going anywhere, I thought, though I know that she doesn't want to hear that again. It's true though, I could never leave. 'You could never lose me.' I mumbled, my voice on the verge of being as quiet as a whisper.

'But you can't even say that. You-you can't just be with me and keep doin what chu do. It's not healthy. If you wanna be with somebody else then just be with somebody else, don't try to drag me with you though. That's not a good way to continue your life.'

I bit down on my bottom lip, thinking of what I could possibly have to say to that. I don't want nobody else. I want La'Niya, I need her. I just don't know how to stop being a hoe.