My Sleepy Stuart

Chapter 24 - Steven

Karl P.O.V

Nagising ako with a very heavy thing laid upon me. I wanted to open my eyes up pero sobrang nahihilo ako. Hindi naman hard ang ininom ko kagabi ah? Pero naisip ko rin na ako lang kasi ang umubos kaya lasing talaga ako.

Nagulat ako when the thing that was above me squirmed enough for me para mapadilat talaga ako. In my surprise a loud groan echoed the whole room.

It's a person!

Tinulak ko 'whoever-the-person' is and nagulat ako nang humilata na siya. A ray of sun stroke through his face and my heart began to race. D-did we? Oh my freaking---

"Ah!" I screamed as I jumped out of bed.
I fell out of the frame and bumped my butt kissing the floor.

I heard him groan.

"Karl!" He screamed out my name as he got out of bed and went after me.

I immediately closed my eyes as his naked body flashed before me. I can feel blood rushing upwards and my face burned up red.

"Are you okay?"

"What did you do?" I asked.
Turning my head away and breathed out. I didn't even know I was holding all of my breath. I can picture what happened last night. I was so drunk!

"Huh? You mean 'what did we do'?" He teasingly rephrased.

"You prick!"

Agad kong kinuha yung throw pillow at tinapon ko sakanya. He dodged it at first. Pero kinuha ko pa ang isang unan, lumapit ako sakanya at pinagpapalo siya.

He just laughed it off pero sobrang nadumihan ako sa sarili ko. I stopped at the moment I was out of breath. I looked at him still smiling.

I feel like I've been betrayed. Worry obviously flashes into my face. I tried to swift my thoughts off but it seems like Steven caught what I've been worrying.

"Hey. Hey. Hey" he held me by my shoulders and he looked straight into my eyes.
"I loved it. I liked it. I wanted it. Not because I was horny as fuck but I sort of had feelings for you. I'm sorry if it burdens you. But I don't want you to think that you forced me to this. Don't think of yourself like a dirty whore or something because you are not. Okay?"

I nodded. Trying to convince myself with his words of assurance. But neither of my thoughts slipped through. It keeps on ringing in my head and I'm fuckin' feeling paranoid.

What will people think of me? A whore? What will my friends think of me? What will my parents and Steven's parents think of me? I didn't want people judging me. I know I shouldn't care but that's not me if I didn't even cared! I'm Karl Marx who cares other's perspectives more than what I care in the world. So pretty messed up.

"Listen to me. Karl." I shifted my gaze to Steven as he grabbed a hold of my cheeks and turned my head towards his gaze.

"No one will know. I swear, I'll keep this for the both of us." I teared up.

I suddenly remembered Stuart. It felt like I betrayed him. I sobbed and tears fell carelessly on my cheeks. He wiped it off.

"Why shouldn't it be you?" He looked at me confusedly.

"I wish you're the one I've fallen in loved first." I answered.

He smiled and kissed me softly on the corner of my lips. He sighed.

"Then I would have been a jerk to you." I frowned at him. He sighed and his hands fell off. He sat at the corner isle of the bed and sighed once again.

"I was hesitating at first if I really loved you back then. I tried to push it away too but little did I know it only grew even firmer than before. If you would have fallen first and confessed first. I would have pushed you away. I would have kicked your ass out of my house everytime you try to come in. But I thank God that didn't happen. Because I fear that day will have to come." I clearly heard him sobbed.

I crawled behind him and gave him a back hug. My bare chest connecting to his bare back. Feeling both of our heat and our rhythm of our breaths combined. We stayed like that for a while until Steven stopped sobbing.

"I'm sorry." Was all that I could utter.

I can't find any more words for him to tell. He just confessed his feelings. But sadly I couldn't return it. I've been longing for Stuart. And for Stuart I shall return. Even though he broke me a million times. I'll always come back into pieces. He must've forgotten, I'm no glass just like what he thought I was.

Steven is a good friend. And I could not find anymore ways of ruining it. Instead all I could give him was a love of a friend. I betrayed Sammy. And I understand if she's gonna be mad at me. But I will explain it to her what really happened.

Author's note:

Sorry guys! Just a short update. Kase sa cellphone ako gumawa. I need inspiration. Vote naman diyan. O kahit any violent reactions sa chapter na ito. 😂