asian; noah centineo

ni-ju | don't have to get all hot and bothered

emma

so i told noah about my parents, and i felt like a whole weight was lifted off me. i fell asleep on the couch that night with him, but somehow he managed to transport me to the bed. he left a note for when i woke, saying he had work to do so he couldn't stay.

"i can't believe you're together and you actually told him." chloe laments, "haven't y'all known each other for like 3 months only?"

"it's more than that, maybe 5? i don't know, i just feel a lot when it comes to him, you know? this feeling is so new to me but i don't want it to go away." i confess. i didn't know what i was feeling for noah. i did like him a lot and seeing him makes my heart skip.

"oh my god. do you love him?" chloe starts freaking out.

"i think.. i think i do. but is it too fast? is it puppy love? i don't know!" ive never fallen in love before, and this feeling was so foreign. it's like i wanted him to have every piece of me.

"babe, you get attached to people easily, i wouldn't be surprised. but just don't let him hurt you, don't give him too much. when you get hurt you just pretend you aren't affected but i know you are." she tells me softly.

"i know i do. but i don't want that though, i don't want to hold myself back because it makes me feel terrible. i just want to let him know how much i like him so he doesn't doubt it?" i know how it feels like know or think you care more about your friends and loved ones than they care about you, and i didn't want anyone to feel that way, like they weren't enough or to doubt themselves or my love for them. i get attached to relationships quickly and even platonic relationship i get so emotionally intense sometimes only to end up getting hurt because people just make use of me. but that's also how i found my closest friends, especially those i still keep in contact with.

"then don't, but at least make sure he feels the same way too." she says sternly. i nod, crashing backwards onto my bed. i really do hope he feels the same way.

"in other news, i'm going out with sterling again later. i think i like him. he's so sweet and kind, not to mention he's pretty hot." she had been hanging out with sterling a lot recently. yes, sterling, noah's best friend.

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noah excitedly bounces into my dorm, telling me his whole day at work and how he's going on a break after this mini series he would be shooting in LA.

"are your exams coming soon?" he hugs me from behind as i type on my laptop, my arms relaxing to grab his.

"yeah, it's end october." i huff, my concentration now turned to noah. my exams were stressing me out. chloe told me countlessly that it was the hyper competitive asian in me.

"i'm sure youll do fine, ive seen your report slips, they're fucking amazing. i don't think i ever did this well." he reassures me and i rest my cheek on his arm, closing my eyes.

"so... your birthday is coming. any wishes?" i crane my neck backwards to look at him.

"noah, you don't have to get me anything." i tell him honestly. i never understood the big deal about birthdays. sometimes i just feel like it was the start of this mess of a life. "i do want a cuddle though." i giggle, reaching my hand upwards to ruffle his hair.

"keep that day free for me then." he grins, kissing my cheek.

"is chloe out?" he gets on my bed in his work clothes and i glare at him. he puts his hands up in surrender and begins stripping.

"noah what the heck!" i scream as he starts to take his pants off.

"you said no outside clothes and i didn't bring clean clothes!" he pouts. i throw him his hoodie, but i didn't have any of his shorts.