#suicidal

#Chapter Four

It had been three months. Three months since her parents' funeral, since her friends found out, since Jacob started abusing her. And since Kayla started cutting. It had been three months since she had uncovered her arms and she was not proud of it. It killed her every time she saw her friends looking at her differently than they used to and when they could wear a t-shirt and she couldn't. She was dying on the inside and out. What should she do? What could she do? Well, she started going on this website for people like her. It was terrible though. Kayla did make one discovery from it. She made a friend. Not loads, not at all. Just the one. They talked every night! He helped Kayla but it wasn't the best help. He felt the way she did. As Kayla sat on her bed, she put her head on her knees and covered her face with her hair.

"What am I going to do?" she quietly mumbled. A drunken yell for her came from downstairs. "I'm strong, I can do this!" She thought to herself. Wiping tears from under her eyes, she walked dejectedly down to see her brother. By the time she reached the kitchen he was passed out on the floor. She knelt down and brushed hair from his eyes.

"I love you so much, please stop." She whispered to him. Kayla couldnt really blame her brother though, she was a terrible sister. "I want to make things right, i really do." She wiped away a tear that had landed on his forehead.

Sighing, Kayla took a pillow off the couch and placed it under his head. She kissed his forehead and walked out the room and back upstairs. She opened her laptop and smiled slightly. A small notification popped up on the bottom of the screen.

FLYINGuphigh:Heyy, how are you today :)

PaPeRaIrOpLaNeS: Hi, today has been pretty good, how's things been with your brother?

FLYINGuphigh: *Sighs in Spanish* Everything is still the same, but I was wondering...

PaPeRaIrOpLaNeS: Yeeeeeeeeess? XD

FLYINGuphigh: Can we meet up? I mean, it has been two months...

PaPeRaIrOpLaNeS: No can do, I don't want you to see me any different than I am.

FLYINGuphigh: I have to go, see talk to you later J

PaPeRaIrOpLaNeS: goofnight bewtiful

PaPeRaIrOpLaNeS: ugh, I mean Goodnight xxx

This guy made Kayla happy, and to be quite frank she didnt know why. Or really want to either. When she looked at the clock, it was 10. It might not be late for some people but...

When Kayla finally got her pjamas on after a nice, short, cold shower, she jumped into bed. After rolling around until she was comfy, Kayla sighed and closed her eyes. Tonight was going to be a long night, she could tell.

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Sooooooooooooooo sorry for not updating in ages :( I will be updating this story a lot more frequently now a days and sozboz for the short chapter, but i have quite a lot planned for the next one. I will try and update by Friday but i am going to Wales for a week. Hope there's wiffy XD xxx