People say im funny, but shy about my feelings
I'm only like that because I'm not sure how I'm dealing
I hide behind my jokes like a facade that hides the truth, to hide my feelings I've had since my youth.
Call it a coping mechanism if you like, cause it helps me cope with everyday life
Friends enjoy my jokes but maybe thats my fear, without my lightheartedness noone would come near.
Take away the humor and look at whats left, nothing but a mix of emotions.
Maybe im afraid you wont like who i am, maybe im afraid that im in too deep and you'll think something is wrong.
Maybe I like to make you laugh, to see you smile and know its because of me, maybe its because i think its the entire reason you like me.
This is the deepest these poems can get, this is all my guts spilled on the table.
So until i can battle this internal debate im having, ill stick to the old rule....
"always leave them laughing"
